Suzaku's Spotlights

Spotlighting on.... Things that had yet to be achieved by The Mar

2011-03-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

There is a saying, said by one of the wiser best friends of mine, fellow geengster and owner of the sister blog-spot of the spotlights, Shanky. He once proclaimed via facebook: Life is like a roll of toilet paper, the closer you get to the end, the faster it goes. I totally disagree.

Life is more like cheeseburgers, you choose what goes in that cheeseburger before you swallow it and whatever shit that comes out is due to what you ate in the first place.

Anyway, the spotlights today wishes to shine on the topic proposed by one of the newest advocates Natasha, aka Ang Moh of WHL. She asked a few weeks ago, that I wrote on what I have yet to achieve in my life. I was going to ask her if she would like to know for just this life or my past life, the days of when I was a soldier fighting evil villains as Captain America but I decided not to in respect of the upcoming movie. Anyway, here are the the list of things that I have yet to achieve presently:

THE LIST OF THINGS THAT HAD YET TO HAPPEN FOR THE MAR

1. I HAVE NOT ACHIEVE WORLD DOMINATION
I planned to some day rule the world with an iron fist. I will make all the people who piss me off at one point of my life to sweep the roads. Every Thursday will be " Appreciate The Mar day" where everyone will stop whatever they are doing at 9 am and dance to Lambada for 5 minutes and then shout "Mar is King" Currently, my plans to conquer Earth has a lot of flaws so I will have to wait a while to fine tune it.

2.I HAVE NOT ACHIEVED FAME AND NOTORIETY
Fame and notoriety essentially means 1 thing, that is to get the majority of people worldwide to recognize you. I have yet to get this recognition but I am sure it will happen sooner rather than later due to my undeniable awesomeness. Someday, the history books will have a 2 chapters on my life.

3.I HAVE NOT SEEN MY MILLION DOLLARS
This really bugs me to no end. I deserve my fortune and the ability to just but whatever I want. The palm reader predicts me to never achieve this but I replied him with him reading the back of my palm on his face. Anyway, once I achieve my first million,. I will use it to wisely plan my future........ Ok so I will splurge on games, sue me!

CONCLUSION:
These are the 3 most important things that I have not yet done in my life. I could put my stealing of Shanky's jacket as things I have not achieved but I am going to rob him in 2 months time so I can strike off that list. That maggot can get all the warning signs and still never see me come and take his jacket. A special thank you to Natasha for that great suggestion for a topic. Till then, The Mar signs off

PS: The Captain America movie had yet to pay me royalties.

Spotlighting on.... Last wishes before Armageddon

2011-03-14T13:21:00.000-07:00

Firstly, The Mar offers his deepest condolences and a prayer to the victims of the devastating earthquake, tsunami and volcanic eruption taking place around the world, namely Japan and Indonesia. I sincerely wish they stay strong in this dire times.

Such tragedies occurring forces The Mar to rethink. What if that foretold impeding Giant Squirrel invasion in 2012 that had been plaguing my dreams never happened and in its place instead Armageddon? I sure as hell am not ready to meet my maker and as such prays again it never takes place in my lifetime.

These are my last wishes that I hope be fulfilled, should it happens 2012 is the end

1. I WISH SHANKY BUYS ME A T-SHIRT
All my loyal followers know that I have been trying in vain to steal his jacket. I WILL succeed in stealing his jacket and as such, I wish he will buy me a t- shirt so that it matches with the stolen jacket. For the record, I like white.

2. I WISH FOR A FREE SUPPLY OF PS3 GAMES
I finally owned a PS3 and as such I will marry Crystal, the woman who I loved and the co owner of the PS3. Now I wish the games be handed to me free of charge as every damn game is bloody expensive. Sure I could stop playing and save my cash but the maggots who suggested that should be the ones who does not own a console, so NO!

3. I WISH FOR SNOW IN SINGAPORE
I would like to experience winter just once in my life. That would get me the excuse to complain about the cold weather. It would also be great as I could make snowballs and throw it to people like Nora, Eva, Justin and Zairi. Why them? Because I feel like it. When it snows, I will throw ST, better known now as Ryan into the cold streets naked and laugh at him. Again, this is because I can... with the help of Shanky of course.

4. I WISH FOR A GOLD MEDAL
I do not care for what. I just want a damn medal. It could be for exceptionally awesome writing skills. It could be for being most pleasant or annoying or whatever. I just would like to be acknowledged by a certain panel of people. Sure it is a shameless request but I am making the wishes so I do not care.

5. I WISH I HAVE THE LICENSE TO SPEAR PEOPLE
It would be nice to go around and spear every single maggot available. Be it to the construction workers who is hell making a ruckus when I am trying to sleep or to the irritating customers at my workplace for adding unnecessary stress to my health. With this, I will also spear all the maggots who keep reminding me how freaking tall I am. I will also spear the McDonald's delivery service because it is usually over an hour before they sent me my orders.

6.I WISH FOR FREE LIMOUSINE SERVICE
I really wish this one comes true for me. It would be great to have someone drive you around town. I would get the driver to drive me around town everyday for a while just to show off to all the maggots existing there that I have a personal chauffeur. Heck if I am going to die in 2012, I would like to have something to gloat about.

7. I WISH FOR PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER FOR 10 SECONDS
There will never be any end to conflict even if they knew the end is tomorrow. Humanity is a genius when it comes to conflicts. As such, I wish for that miserable 10 seconds, everyone in this human world, stop whatever they are whining, bitching and moaning, put aside all their differences and to just understand each other. Understand what the other is speaking, understand the pain, the love and the hatred. For just 10 seconds.

CONCLUSION:
I certainly hope that 2012 is not the end. I am more than prepared to be murdered and betrayed in 2012, The Giant Squirrel War(refer to one of the previous episodes of the Spotlights) but I sure as hell am not ready for the world to end. This had been another episode in the award winning blog-spot, The Spotlights.

Spotlighting on...Morality at work

2011-03-10T19:53:00.000-08:00

The Mar is dead certain that at some points in life, we were taught the concept of morality and ethics. The act of doing good, honesty and to do good upon others.

I had been asked to give my theories as to why all those lessons had been neglected and as to how to cope with that. After searching my soul for like a few minutes and a lot of green tea, The Mar emerges from the toilet to give you his take on this matter

1. Quota
In the world of sales, quota is everything. Everyone to them is a statistic, a yes or a no. Ask any salesperson if you do not believe me. If they deny that they do not have a quota, then that means they are the most effective salesperson and you must avoid meeting up so often with him/her or they will rope you in to buy their product.

WAYS TO USE THIS:

(1) Lie to your rivals that you do not care about your quota. If they disbelieve you, just scoff at them and call them fools.
(2) Always slip in a sad state of your life to your customers to win that sympathy factor. Remember to add a tear or a cough to make it sadder.
(3) Do not try to hit the ceiling all the time as the quota will be raised all the time. Instead maintain a consistent level so as to maintain that consistent level of performance. Once in 3 months, then try to be the top seller.

2.Deception
Most of the time, people tend to lie to get what they want. They will tell their bosses if he/she had a great haircut even if the boss 's haircut is awful. The maggots call this brown nosing, I use the nicer term deception. Anyone who denies to have never brown nose anyone else is a straight up liar.

WAYS TO USE THIS:
(1) Always tell your boss that he/she is a good boss. Compliment them for their work and occasionally, tell them they are a nice person. Do not compliment of their looks all the time or they will think you are trying to get fresh with them.
(2) Do not try to deceit too much. Always try to lie once in a while or your rivals will know of your dastard plans. The worst thing is to overdo something
(3) Work very hard when your boss is around. Show that you are putting on your best efforts everyday for that 10 min.

3.Nice guys finish last
Everyone denies this but it is an open secret. The ones promoted are not the most effective of workers but the ones who are more ruthless in their dealings. They are the ones to win as they have the guts to just run over any threat for progression. People at the top sees this as potential management material as they view this unscrupulous characters as the ones who can keep the herd in order without any fear or retribution

WAYS TO USE THIS:
(1) Get the nice guy to clean up your mess. If he or she refuses, use that sad story again.
(2) Always compliment the nice guy to try make him/her in his comfort zone
(3) Never be that nice guy. I repeat, never be that nice guy.

Conclusion:
Morality is a dream when it reaches the working world. I could write a thesis on this matter but since Scott Adams had written a strip on this, I will not step on his turf and let him continue his brilliant work. My final advice on the award winning spotlights is , to win the war, you must lose your ethics. Similarly, to win a jacket, you must be willing to risk life and limber to try and steal it from some unsuspecting maggot.

SIDENOTE:
SHANKY, I 'WILL NOT' STEAL YOUR JACKET AND YOU ARE NOT AN UNSUSPECTING MAGGOT.

Spotlighting on...The Power to act

2011-02-17T17:20:00.000-08:00

The power to act and react.

That power is not exclusive to anyone and everyone has that equal opportunity to fix whatever situation they are in.

Everyone of us is born with a brain. That brain is our natural weapon of survival. The instrument that helps us survive wilderness and to fend for ourselves and our kin.

Anyone can be great if they chose to do and not talk

Instead of just complaining, whining or ranting online for whatever grievances that troubles you, would it not be better to just stop, and think of a solution. Instead of forever trapped in that loophole of sadness and thinking that there is no way out, why can't people try and devise an escape route.

Nothing is impossible.
Just stop with all the excuses!

Get up and fight. Stop bitching and fix it. Take it. Go and live your life and try, if even if it fails, never once give up. Live your life. Better to die trying than to never try at all. Watch the spotlights

Spotlighting on...The Inevitable

2011-02-03T08:04:00.000-08:00

The Mar just feels like sharing an inspired poem on the award winning spotlights. I am a little rusty at writing but I hope its good. Here it is:

THE INEVITABLE

Forever not it may last
Thought not it happened in the past
Nor during thy travels of thy wanderlust
or even present but it is a must

Thy nature someday shall be revealed
Be it dark or shades of teal
Loves brothers or just to steal
The persona of that person underneath the veil'

Shall not forever be hidden by lies
Cause it will be exposed not by spies
But the sound of thy joy or cries
Silent it may be but it never dies

The human heart is plain simple
Complicated by motives and agendas but people
take heed of my advice simple
Thy true nature shall never be faked forever people

The poem is not really my best work and I admit I am rusty after such disappearing for quite some time.
However I hope the advocates like it.

PS: GREEN TEA IS NOT REALLY GREEN IN COLOR.

Spotlighting on... The Motive

2010-12-13T18:02:00.000-08:00

The biggest handicap that I ever face is the fact that I simply refuse to follow the lead. I simply have to analyze before I made a decision and that while may be a great trait, it may also hinders all potential progress that I could have attained.

Writing used to be so easy. The words used to drown me. I would have to furiously type it out for fear of my life. Now I am facing the biggest drought of my writing career.

I credit this predicament to my current goals. In pursuing what I want in life, I seemed to have lost my edge, the ones that defined me as a character and as a person.

I simply refuse to follow. Comply to the usual, just work through the day, get some cash, shop, date then hang out with people and sleep. No, in my life, I must make an impact, I must make a difference. I have to go for my visions.

The Mar do not expect anyone to understand his actions, his decisions or his reasoning. There wasn't anyone who understands his logic anyway in the first place. Therefore, I announce on this blog-spot, this episode of the spotlights, I will be successful and I will damn well make all the pain worth it.

Spotlighting on....Temporary Shutdown

2010-11-13T10:12:00.000-08:00

The world is neither nice nor fair. Whine, bitch or moan, things shall stay the way they are if you do not move, it is that simple. The ones born with a silver spoon in reality are the worst off, ill-equipped to handle the harsh realities of life should they encounter.

I decided to just stop writing for a while.To think where the new direction of this blog-spot should go.I may return to writing or perhaps I might shut this blog-spot down. Alternatively, I might just start a new, brutally darker blog-spot. Till then see you guys... Goodbye

Spotlighting on...THE MAR AWARDS 2010

2010-10-22T04:06:00.000-07:00

THE MAR AWARDS

Surprise Surprise advocates! The prestigious Mar Awards is back.

The Mar Awards is the annual online awards ceremony, rewarding the absolute best and worst that 2010 has to offer. This prestigious awards of honor is bestowed online and an incredible amount of fame, or infamy will be bestowed upon the winners. This year, instead of announcing the nominees before the awards ceremony itself, The Mar and his panel of judges has decided to secretly keep everything hush hush and announce the winners beforehand to have that element of surprise. Thus before we begin, let the spotlights reveal the Judges...

JUDGE 1: THE MAR
JUDGE 2: PUSPA THE CAT
JUDGE 3: THAT HOT BABE IN MY DREAMS

Let now The Spotlights shines on THE MAR AWARDS

Nominees for BEST FAST-FOOD RESTAURANT 2010
1.Burger King
2.Long John Silvers
3.KFC

WINNER : Burger King
Burger King wins the award due to the funny looking hats they hand out to children!

Nominees for BEST MAR MOMENT 2010

1.Disturbing a random uncle in the MRT
2.Doing John Cena's hand move "YOU CANT SEE ME" to his former customers at the USS
3.Going into KFC at Jurong West CC and demanding chicken rice and suggesting that they sell coconut tarts.

WINNER : Going into KFC at Jurong West CC and demanding chicken rice and suggesting that they sell coconut tarts.
This Mar Moment is witnessed by AJ and Nas G who instead of helping me explain as to why KFC should sell chicken rice, chose to berate The Mar and asked him to not harass the poor over-worked girl.

Nominees for HOTTEST FEMALE CELEBRITY 2010
1. Lady Gaga
2. Kate Perry
3.Ashley Tisdale

WINNER : Kate Perry
I rather have a boot kicked to my head than to ever award Lady Gaga with this award. Kate Perry wins on the account that he makes Puspa The Cat drools whenever he sees her music videos.

Nominees for HOTTEST MALE CELEBRITY 2010
1.Ryan Reynolds
2.Sylvester Stallone
3.Justin Bieber

WINNER : Sylvester Stallone
We draw lots and his name came out.

Nominees for JABRONI OF THE YEAR 2010
1. Dim Sum Dollies
2.The Bear at The Bus Stop in Singapore
3.Phua Chu Kang

Winner : Wayne Rooney
All 3 nominees are jabronis. Dim Sum Dollies for that annoying jingle in the MRT, The Bear for creating such an unwarranted and unfunny buzz and Phua Chu Kang for attempting a movie. However, no one has been a bigger idiot than Wayne Rooney, who has been pulling all the stops in giving us, the Man United rivals reasons to laugh our asses off. Sure Arsenal may lose Fabregas but at least we will lose him in a dignified way unlike Rooney, a splattered name amongst mud.

Nominees for MOST DESERVING OF A SPEAR 2010
1. AJ and Nas G
2. Shanky
3. Justin Goh

Winner : All of the nominees
AJ and Nas G for not helping him explain to KFC about the need to sell chicken rice, Shanky for his jackets and Justin, just for the sake of it.

AND THE GRAND FINALE...

Nominees for BEST BLOG-SPOT 2010
1. xiaxue.blogspot.com/
2. shankyshakur.blogspot.com/
3.suzakuspotlights.blogspot.com/

Winner : suzakuspotlights.blogspot.com
Anyone can sell a blog via sex appeal and scandalous revelations but it takes a true writer to simply write honestly.

With yet again, stunning back to back years bagging the best blog-spot awards, The Spotlights humbly accept the accolades and ends this stunning episode of the 2-time award winning blog-spot.

Spotlighting on....The Spear

2010-10-20T04:38:00.000-07:00

The Spear. Sometimes also known as The Gore. This is a move made popular by wrestling stars like Edge, Batista and a lot others. This maneuver can also be seen in real time sports like rugby, American football and more recently the S-League soccer aka foot-brawl match, Young Lions vs Beijing Guoan. For those who for reasons unknown had never seen such a manouvere, here is a sample clip of the spear.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kctY0CNJHRM

In this episode of the award winning blog-spot, The Mar decides to list down some of the people he would someday spear to oblivion. So onwards we go, the list of maggots who truly deserve the spear.....

MAGGOT 1.
The Dim Sum Dollies!
Seriously, that jingle in the MRT about loving your ride is making me love the idea of giving each one of the actresses a spear. That stupid song is driving me to the point of insanity and there are times I took the ever crowded bus just so I could have some peace. I could choose to listen to my Ayumi but I rather not be held hostage by the 3 uhm,singers

MAGGOT 2.
The Uncle with that annoying bike horn!
These days, I seldom hear that blaring Godfather themed horn. However, the moment the horn hit my ears, my blood goes up in flames. How I wish I could spear him, laugh at him, then spear his bicycle. After that, when he gets up, I spear him again.

MAGGOT 3.
Shanky
Yeah, this one is a shocker. The reason behind this revelation is that I still plan to steal all his jackets, even after this time, except the gay-looking one. The current plan is to lure him into a false sense of security before I spear his ass into next episode and then steal his jackets. Then I spear him again for reading Twilight. Of course, by declaring this plan on the Spotlights, I would have to do it in a more creative manner.

There are a whole bunch of others I would spear but if I were to truly list them all, this post would never end. Thus I conclude this rendition of the spotlights.

PS: RIO, I VOW TO SPEAR YOU 4 TIMES

Spotlighting on...Karma

2010-10-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

The Mar knows a lot of his advocates will find this fact unbelievable but here goes nothing. I do not believe in karma.

For those who do not know the definition of karma, I suggest them to start reading a lot more. However, just for those people, here is the simple definition of karma : If you do something good, rewards are on your way, if you do bad things, the same bad things will befall unto you.

It makes sense to believe that. After all, good things should happen to those whose deeds are beneficial and good for others. They should be rewarded for their heartfelt actions. The bad people should be punished and as such, order in life is maintained.

Unfortunately, the situations around me forces me to not believe in that idealism. All I see is the good people getting screwed and the ones doing evil being rewarded. I mean , for example liars with a good grasp in English become lawyers and make tons of money. After loads of lying, they will be punished with either a retirement full of riches or a new life in politics.

Closer to home, I have seen many of my friends, all of them while not angels, are good in nature and yet suffer a horrendous amount of challenge and evil. The ones who use devious means to get what they want truly benefits and gets duly rewarded.

An example you often see, a friend of mine, so loyal to love and yet ends up being betrayed. The ones who betrayed him get away and finds happiness while he is left with a heartbreak and a lot of shame. Though I am not close to him even though I had known him for years, it pains me to see him in this sorry state, a state of denial and self-punishment.

Here is another example, A person who always is nice and friendly to people never doing bad stuff to others. This person chooses to be a girl instead of a guy and gets scorned from everywhere. The person tries so much to be accepted and yet until now, the person periodically gets hurt through discrimination and manipulation

Out of respect for privacy, I shall not disclose the stories of my besties. However here it is flat out and honest, their stories, all of them strengthen my non-belief in the existent of karma. I believe that in life, we should rely not in the will of the universe in getting rewarded but rather down to our desire and the willingness to chase for what we want. For the ones who do evil, do not rely on karma in punishing them. Rather just leave them alone and let them relish their unwarranted gains. Sooner or later they will realize that the worst punishment is the denial of human ties.

For all those who believe, my argument is lacking in bite, do write to me and I shall quote more stories so as to justify my claims. I just wish I could protect everyone, be it the ones I know for a short or long time.

Tune in to the next rendition of the award winning blog-spot, The Spotlights

Spotlighting on....The Mar

2010-09-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

This is really becoming a bad habit. Inconsistent updates on the award-winning blog-spot. I sincerely hope my loyal cohort of readers would cut me some slack.

This time, the spotlight shines strongly on.....MYSELF! Yea! Today, the brain behind the spotlights shall go under the microscope. To help make this a reality, The Mar has called upon his most loyal and trusted friend, Puspa the cat to facilitate the interview.

PUSPA THE CAT

THE INTERVIEW WITH THE MAR

The Mar: Thanks Puspa for helping me carry out this interview.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Where is the chicken you promised me?

The Mar: Ok Ok. I give to you after we get this thing done

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Fine. Lets get this started! Mar, first and foremost, a most important question to me, how do you feel about cats?

The Mar: I like cats. I think they are nice. Here let me rub your stomach.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) You touch my stomach and I will scratch your eyeballs.

The Mar: Uhm you know, you should be nice to your owner.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Whatever! Anyway, I want my chicken. Next question, why in the blue of bluest hell are you so inconsistent in updating your blogs?

The Mar: I have many commitments. My new job as a front office executive, my girl Crystal, my family, my frien.....

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Excuses! You should make more time to write. Do you know how many hairballs I swallowed while waiting for your next episode!

The Mar: Wow! I didnt know you are a fan. I give you 2 pieces of chicken later.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) I changed my mind. I want a piece of steak now.

The Mar: What the hell! Do you know how much a freaking steak cost?

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Thats your problem! Next question. Why are you so hard on your fellow geengster Shanky with his reading Twilight? By the way, I am on team Jacob!

The Mar: ...... You.....read......Twilight? You are my freaking cat! How can you read such a cheesy love story? A love triangle between a girl, a vampire and a werewolf? Supporting such a story would mean disrespect to all manhood. I mean cant she just hook up with a normal teenager?

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) That is so you Mar. Freaking egoistic and arrogant. That story is about the fickleness and the blindness of love amidst a war.

The Mar: Whatever! If I want a love story, I read Chobits. Shoot me with the next question.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) How do you find your new job and your new life?

The Mar : I find it now more challenging. A lot more things and I have to be alert at all times with so many things popping up all of a sudden. However, the major downfall is that I miss my friends. You know people like Serene, Abby, Nadia, Hanah, Eva, AJ,Nas,Nora.....

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Ooooo Serene

The Mar: Uhm, stop drooling on my carpet Puspa!

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Sorry. Anyway last question of the interview and then I get my steak.

The Mar: How the heck am I gonna find steak at this hour?

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) Why are you so distant this days?

The Mar: I am not distant. It is just that I am tired of going out so often. You know at this age, I rather be at home and chill. Introverted, distant whatever! I just prefer the comfort of my bed.

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) That sounds like an old man talking. Either that or you just do not want to get so emotionally vested with so many people.

The Mar: What are you? My cat or my shrink? So what if I do not want to get too emotionally attached to people?

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) You cannot ignore the reality Mar. Whether you like it or not, people accepted the person that you are, that egoistic maniacal jerk and still love you. You should make the effort to return that favor by making an effort!

The Mar: Harsh! I... I....

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) I know deep down you care. Just do not push people away ok. Oh and go easy on Shanky.

The Mar: Ok I will do my best. I guess I should make some time for my people. BUT NO WAY AM I EVER GOING TO LET SHANKY OFF

Puspa: Meow Meow(Translation) You ask for it you maggot!

With that, Puspa attacked me. I did try to calm him down with the chicken at hand but he didnt fall for my bait. Puspa the cat left me reeling in pain. Bloody cat! Sigh, tune in next time for another episode of the spotlights.

Spotlighting on...Deluded Truths

2010-09-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

The simple nature of truth is that truth never really existed. We searched for all the answers during our short stay here on planet earth but in finding out something, that something sparks a never ending chain of questions, answers that ultimately sparking more questions.

We tend to think, our emotions are the truth to ourselves, that by acting on whatever we are feeling at that exact moment, we are doing what is right, what is honest and what that must be done.

EXAMPLE: SHANKY READS TWILIGHT AND DECIDES TO ASPIRE TO BE A VAMPIRE. HE BEGAN BITING RANDOM PEOPLE ON THE STREET. ONE OF HIS VICTIMS THEN DECIDES TO GET REVENGE AND PUNCHED HIM BACK.

Looking at this siuation, what really is right? Shanky was just being honest to himself and tries to suck blood. The victim too was being true to emotion and answered in fists. So who's truth really stands?

It saddens me when friends that I acknowledge began to just to follow their own truth and not give in to what others feel. They tend to just act rashly, without a blinding care, like an impulsive brat who just do whatever he or she may want. Like a deluded king or a drunken queen, blindly twisting away whatever reality is throwing at them.

The spotlights advise these people to just grow up. The world does not revolve around you nor The Mar. For once in your lives, stop being so selfish, so ingrateful and so childish and face up to reality. YOU are in the wrong. So shut up and say sorry already.

With that, ends another chapter of the award winning blog-spot, the spotlights.

Spotlighting on...Goodbyes

2010-08-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

I hate goodbyes. That is the reason I usually either just make some stupid comment to end my conversations or just annoy the other party so as to avoid me saying those words.

Truth be told, everyone is precious to me. Be it the ones featured prominently in my award winning blog-spot or those The Mar just met recently, I care. It wrenches my heart whenever I have to no longer be in touch with someone who had entered my life.

The ones who have been with me, the people told me that I distanced myself away from them, preventing them from ever seeing whatever fragements of my soul. Even Crystal complains that. It seems everyone notices that I keep this goofy, wild and childlike demeanor so as to not let people take me seriously and thus not let them get close to me.

I am sorry. I guess this is just who I am. I rather not let people see the sad man that I am and rather spend my time in seeing your smiles and laughter. I rather be far and not let anyone break my heart with the goodbyes.

However I promise henceforth to do my best, to open up to the ones who matter, I will slowly lower my shield and let the ones who matter, the advocates but not the maggots to enter the heart of Mar. In the future, please do not try to leave me all of you, keep in touch someway or another. Every goodbye hurts so please just be gentle on the Mar.

Spotlighting on.. Crisis of the 26

2010-08-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

Somewhere in my reunion with my three besties, AJ, Nas G and Andi, AJ mentioned the fact that in 4 years time, we will be 30.

At that exact moment, I really feel very old. Oh my god, now I am 26, 30 will be like the middle of my life, provided my premonitions of the giant squirrels failed to come true. I began to reflect, what have I achieved so far in my life, what have I been doing in my entire life and where in the blue hell am I going at this rate.

IS THIS ME IN 2040?

Dejection, depression and hopelessness sinks in. SO much valuable time wasted on mistakes, on failures and it seems that the hours for redemption is decreasing rapidly. I got lost in my own little dream, dream within a dream within a dream, oblivious to the conversations around me. I then begin to silently utter a prayer, that some genius invents a time machine so that I could beat the living snot out of him, jack that damn machine and undo all the past choices I had made.

A few seconds later, we saw a hot chinese babe walking in front of us. The jaws of reality came back snapping at me with a vengeance. After the four of us stared at that girl for a few seconds, Nas G possibly with his mouth salivating, AJ with his creepy stare, Andi with his blank look and The Mar smiling sweetly, that thought completely vanished.
Today's spotlights shines on this fear. At some point in our lives, we began to be threatened with that oh so dreaded occurance, ageing. It is unavoidable, unless by death and every single one of us will have to face the question, what have I done so far.

I do not know about the rest of my advocates but to me, the best thing that I achieved in life are the support of my family, my loved ones and my friends. True, I may never ever be monstrously rich, infinitely good looking nor I be ultra smart. However, I have love and that itself will be more than enough to push me in finding that shining future that I yearned.

Therefore, I preached to the advocates, friends and maggots reading this, never let the numbers scare you. The future is still open and that whatever we face, let love, friendships and family be the support, the backbone and strive forward. The past is there, not to taunt us but to serve as a lesson so as to not again repeat the wrongs that we did. The award winning blog-spot ends with that piece of loving advice.

DISCLAIMER: TO THE WIFE OF ANDI, THE GIRL OF AJ AND THE GIRL OF THE MAR CRYSTAL, WE DID NOT STARE AT THE CHINESE BABE FOR MORE THAN A FEW SECONDS AND WE STILL LOVE YOU ALL.

Spotlighting on... The Lessons of My Work

2010-08-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

I cannot reveal as to where I work for fear of ramifications for what I am writing. However just know, I am the vice leader of a team selling photos and other photography related products.

It really feels so weird, more weirder than Shanky reading Twilight or Nas not looking at skimpy women, that I am nearing the end of my stint. Yes, I choose to leave, taking a risk as mentioned in the previous episode into venturing into the world of the unknown.

There are so many things that I will never forget, the people, the idiots and the customers. However in today's rendition of the spotlights, I shall highlight the 2 important lessons that I had learned while working there.

LESSON 1: THE ART OF DECEPTION
Like most salesperson, it is just a matter of time before you slowly lose whatever conscience you have and just go about trying to sell your product. I lost mine during the first three days and as such I find myself lying almost every minute

Example:
THE MAR: HAVE A LOOK AT YOUR PHOTOS?
CUSTOMER: PHOTOS?
THE MAR: HERE YOU ARE, YOU LOOKED VERY NICE
CUSTOMER: I CANT SEE MY FACE, HOW MUCH IS THE PHOTO?
THE MAR: IT IS VERY CHEAP, JUST $18

Yea, $18 for a photo is very cheap indeed.

LESSON 2: THE ART OF FLATTERY
Sweet talking, oh the very thing has almost become second nature to The Mar. Almost everyday, I had been called upon to flex one of my few talents, my sweet tongue into suckering a sales pitch.

Example:
CUSTOMER: $18 FOR A PHOTO, SO EXPENSIVE
THE MAR: SIR, I MUST SAY, YOU LOOK THE BEST IN THE PICTURE, VERY HANDSOME,
BEAUTY HAS NO PRICE
CUSTOMER: GET ME ONE

True story, witnessed by 1 of the 2 leaders of the advocates, Serene. She was stunned and maybe even disgusted but a few minutes later, she tried employing the same flattery trick to other customers. The sad conclusion, we are all going to get our tongues cut in hell when we die.

CONCLUSION
While the lessons are not exactly the best in terms of morality and values, them teachings had been unwillingly instilled in the fibre of my mind and thus I have no choice but to continue using them even after my leaving the company. With that, I end today's award winning blog-spot, Suzaku's Spotlights.

SIDE-NOTE: JUST A CLARIFICATION, AJ BEING NICE IS NOT WEIRD, IT IS A RARE OCCASION, AND I STILL GET CREEPED OUT THAT A FELLOW GEENGSTER IS READING TWILIGHT.

Spotlighting on... Monotonicity

2010-08-17T21:56:00.000-07:00

Truth be told, I did not really plan to come back to blogging. While writing has always been the one thing that excites me, after my previous post, I just felt that fire dwindled. That excitement, that need to express and the joy of knowing that people taking their precious little time to read and understand me is all gone.

Much sadder is that instead of rectifying this problem, instead of doing my infamous rituals, this time I chose to just ignore and go through about my life. Sure, there has been calls, questions and even threats, by a certain Shanky, to re-blog. However, I could not explain to him, to my advocates why, why I just do not have the heart to write.... until now.

MONOTONICITY. Repetition of what I am doing everyday. A slave to routine, without emotion without passion. Doing the same thing at work for extended long periods under the sun, having the same financial problems over and over again, and with nothing to really look for at present, it literally drove yours truly, The Mar absolutely lifeless.

After some counseling by Crystal, Eva, Shanky and the rest of the motley crew, I decided to just take a gamble and follow my heart. Break the routine and just venture into the unknown. Yea, to take a risk and no its not a small risk like He Sheng Tao, ST experimenting with GATSBY wax for the first time in his life, nor is it like Shanky giving in and reading the TWILIGHT series. Seriously, Twilight? Next you telling me Shanky is gonna watch the power-puff girls, but anyway...

I guess the point of today's episode is that at some point in our life, we unknowingly become lost in our own world, following what is told without question like zombies with not much going for us, a slave to the daily repetitive chores, facing the same problems again and again without ever knowing how to just kick it in the butt. My advise, just take a risk and change. It may not be the best of moves, but it helps you evaluate what you want the most in life.

That concludes the returning episode of the award winning spotlights. Apologies to all who have been waiting for the prestigious MAR AWARDS, that will be postponed until further notice.

ANNOUNCEMENTS:

1.SERENE AND PHANG SHU XIAN HAS BEEN PROMOTED IN BECOMING THE NEW LEADERS IN THE MOVEMENT OF THE MAR. RESPECT THEM

2. SHANKY SERIOUSLY FREAKED ME OUT WITH HIM READING TWILIGHT. WHY COULD YOU NOT JUST READ ON COOKING OR SOMETHING LESS WEIRD?

3. THE MAR IS BACK

Spotlighting on... The Question

2010-05-31T03:31:00.000-07:00

One of the hardest lessons in life we ever have to learn is the very simple fact we will never get everything we want. As much as we planned nor how vast our resources may be, we can never have it all.

Thus this begs the question, how far are we willing to go to get the things that we really want? Is that much sought for item worth more than what we currently possess and if so, what morals are we willing to compromise to succeed?

Each and everyone of my advocates, look deep down and ask yourself, where are you now and to where are you headed? Have a firm grasp of where you are and accept the bitter fact that sometimes, in order to chase that illusive reward, we have to sacrifice what we deemed precious.

The spotlights today, ask the advocates of Mar to seriously start mapping out your life journey and plan the route. Never let yourself be driven, instead be the driver and take control of the steering wheel. Do what we need to and not what we are told to believe. If you are not willing to pay the price, then do not venture down that lane.

My heart is always with my readers, the ones that been with me through my times of pain and joy. The Mar will not be around forever so if my words change maybe just one of your lives, that is all I could ever wished for. See you in the next rendition of the spotlights.

PS: THE MAR AWARDS IS COMING

Spotlighting on....Warning

2010-05-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

In the month of June, the spotlights shall again host the exclusive Mar Awards. The prestigious awards are given to those who made an impact in the life of Mar.

There will be numerous categories and as such be prepared! The Mar will now silently observe the unsuspecting nominees and will post all the candidates and the categories in the next edition of the spotlights.

Good luck and be up on your guard.

PS: Death to the giant squirrels

Spotlighting on....THE MAGNUM OPUS, VISIONS OF THE SPIRITUAL JOURNEY

2010-05-11T09:57:00.000-07:00

The Mar finally returns after the spiritual journey. Despite overwhelming odds, he made it back intact. However, details of that incredible journey must never be spoken and thus in this episode, the spotlight will be on what The Mar has seen.

THE VISION
In 2012, Giant Squirrels will rise from obscurity and launch a massive attack on our civilization. They will mount a full scale attack world-wide. Our allies are the Giant Chipmunks and they will be the ones who will help us in the upcoming war. Thangachi is the chosen one, the one who will ultimately decide the fate of the universe and thus we must do whatever that is necessary to protect her.

THE ORIGINS
In an era far far in the past, there were two giant squirrels in love. However, a giant chipmunk too fell head over heels over the female giant squirrel and thus do his best to attract her. When he failed, he killed the female giant squirrel and paraded his victory all over. The male giant squirrel was not happy and thus along with his mates declared war over the chipmunks. In that unknown war, the giant squirrels was winning until a human came and killed the leader of the giant squirrel. Demoralized by the death of their figurehead, the squirrels hide in obscurity and planned their ultimate revenge on both the chipmunks and the humans,

2012-THE LOWDOWN
The giant squirrels have a devastating plan to hold the entire earth hostage. They have secretly been planting uranium in trees all over the world and thus plan to destroy the earth in a massive explosion. However they are holding back and am trying to capture Thangachi. It is not seen why she is so very important to the squirrels.

2012- THE FUTURES

RESISTANCE R: This is the secret resistance force that will be lead by NAS G. They have been anticipating the war and have stock piled weapons in order to fend off the giant squirrels. They have gone underground in 2011 in order not to be captured by the government and will liaise with COMMANDO UNIT 27 only during the war. Members include: AJ, PIN HAO, DEBBIE WONG, SERENE LIM, WEE GIAP

COMBAT NURSE UNIT: This is the group that will be dedicated into saving as many lives as they possibly can during the war. They will be lead by PRISCILLIA. Members include MANESH, RIO, KOK SENG, SHELLIE, LENA, FIZA, FELICIA

COMMANDO UNIT 27: This will be the most powerful unit in the war and will play a key part in trying to not only save the hostages but also try to bring down the most powerful unit of the giant squirrel army, SQUID 67. Yeah, squid not squad, do not ask why.

HOSTAGES include: NORA, SIEW CHOO, DEBBIE LEE, RUI WEI, NICA, FREESCIA, ANDI, FAHMI,DESI

COMMANDO UNIT 27 will be lead by MONA and the 2nd in command JENNY TANG. The commandos include YIMING, JAMES, MERA, SANJU, RYN, SER CHIN and ABBY.

2012- KEY FIGURES AND ACTIONS DURING THE WAR

EVA: She is secretly a giant chipmunk all along. She will be the one in the hot seat, in trying to unite the giant chipmunks and the humans into an uneasy alliance in order to stop the terrible plot of the squirrels.

HANAH: 2 years from now, Hanah will be the master of the nun-chucks. However in an epic battle that will rival the fight sequences from IP MAN2 and THE MATRIX REVOLUTIONS, she will be defeated in a one on one combat and be personally captured by the giant Squirrel spy ALBERT, a master of the katana. However, she will not be tortured and will share a unique relationship of respect with Albert.

HE SHENG TAO: ST as he is affectinately known will be captured and be tortured physically and mentally. This is due to the fact that only he, The Mar and Jenny Koh knows the exact location of Thangachi. However he never surrendered to the pain and be rescued by a drunken Debbie Wong. At this time my eyes were foggy so I am not really sure if Debbie Wong is really drunk or is doing a drunken kungfu style.

SHANKY: He is a martian in reality. He has descended on the planet earth in order to have revenge on the giant squirrels. The giant squirrels have destroyed his planet in order to test out their wearpons and Shanky alongside KANNAN are the remaining survivors. He will be involved in a love square between INDRA, MAGGIE and NEILLY. Man, I wish I was him. Anyway, in a fight that with 7 giant squirrels, he will be scarred and will be blind on his left eye.

DANIEL and JANE: The odd duo will be responsible with a vital scouting mission. They will be discovered due to Daniel not putting his handphone in silent mode and will be attacked by SQUID 67. They managed to escape but Daniel will lose 2 fingers and hearing on his left side. Jane will lose a leg. The mission however was a success.

THE MAR, THANGACHI, JENNY KOH, NISHA, CRYSTAL: During the war, The Mar has told Crystal to hide somewhere safe and had promised her that he be back for her in one piece. Alongside Jenny, The Mar are the personal bodyguards for Thangachi and thus went into hiding to protect her. Thangachi at this point of time does not know yet what to do as she still does not know why she is the chosen one. Nisha will discover the location of Thangachi and betray them to the squirrels due to the fact that the squirrels have captured her boyfriend and force her to use her charms in order to get the location of the chosen one. For the greater good, The Mar forces Thangachi to flee with a repentant Nisha, and Jenny Koh while he stayed back and held off the numerous numbers. In the most brutal of encounters, The Mar managed to take down a huge amount of the squirrels but is beaten very badly, stabbed and left for dead. Jenny Koh disobeyed orders and came back and will be tasked into carrying out his last requests.

CONCLUSION
The Mar does not see anything else beyond his impending death. I still do not know why the heck she is the chosen one, why Shanky is a hot-stuff among the ladies nor why must my demise be so dramatic. This has been another episode of the award winning spotlights.

Spotlighting on....Embarking on the 2nd Spritual Journey

2010-05-04T10:56:00.000-07:00

The Mar sincerely apologizes to his advocates for not updating his award winning blog-spot for quite a long time.

The Mar has been very very busy with work and all the events and as such, it has taken its toll on me. The exhaustion, the mental strength to null my heart in order to stay neutral on matters, the depressive past that keeps haunting me is really hurting my mind.

Therefore, I now announce to the world that I, The Mar will undergo another ritual, a radical new one. This time, it will be more dangerous, more violent and potentially more devastating for me. However, I must do this ritual, I must complete it to once and for all silent the once again growing demons.

If I do not make it back in one piece, I betroth all my teachings unto the leaders of the advocates, Debbie Wong and Serene. They will ensure the movement of Mar will be continued for generations to come. I will surrender international teachings to Yuki Kunoshita so that she will spread this teachings all over the world.

The Mar will update on the second spiritual journey. Please pray that he makes it back mentally sound!

SIDE-NOTE: SHANKY AND THE MAR, A PARTNERSHIP THAT KICKS ASS. HOWEVER, I WILL STILL STEAL THAT DAMN WHITE JACKET. OH AND CRYSTAL BABY, YOU ROCK.

Spotlighting on...Announcements Again

2010-04-23T09:25:00.000-07:00

The actions of a man defines how that man will be remembered but the man underneath the actions alone defines why the actions are done.

This episode of the award winning spotlights, I hope to instead receive feedback on this blogspot of mine. Email me at mar_cloud@live.com.sg and do give me comments on what all you advocates, readers or maggots think of my writing honestly. Do also send me on what you would like to me to comment or write about as well.

I said this in past post of mine, if my writings, if this beloved blogspot of mine made any of you think just once or just changed or touch someone's life, it will be more than I ever count on. I do sincerely hope to receive some complaints or compliments soon.

The spotlights shall wait for some feedback before returning for more episodes. Stay tuned yeah.

PS: THE PLANS IN STEALING SHANKY"S JACKET HAS BEEN OVERSHADOWED BY PLANS TO HANG A DEAD CHICKEN OUTSIDE BEATRICE"S OFFICE.

Spotlighting on... Black and White

2010-04-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

The Mar sees the world, reality not in diversity of colors or tones but only in black and white. More simply, logical or improbable.

To me, there really is no such thing as shades of grey. Right or wrong, that is it, make a a choice. For example, it may be argued that a man be justified for murder if it is to avenge a wrong done to him. My point of view, be it what reason, murder is a crime and as such be punishable. In my world, my sight there is no in between, nothing is.

Reality is harsh and life is never fair. It takes me a long time to grow up but I did slightly and as such now view the world no longer from the eyes of my heart but from my brain. The heart deceives, lies and bends its user to do the unthinkable at times for what deemed as personal satisfaction but now I listen more to the brain, the ones that forces me to face the cold cruel world, the one that blinds my feelings in order to do what is right, to not be conflicted by my heart.

Black and white, the ultimate polar opposites. So different and yet each cannot exist without the other. Without evil, there is no definiton for good, without improbabiltity, there truly is no sense and so on.

The award winning spotlights urge its readers to start viewing situations no longer from what you feel or for who you feel but to judge fairly and equally. Fairytales do not exist, only reality and that unforgiving steel of life colors my eyes black and white.

Spotlighting on....Development in The Mar

2010-04-14T07:11:00.000-07:00

I do not feel like writing these few days. I do not know. The funny thing is that it is neither mental blocks nor laziness that makes The Mar feels this way. Rather, it is the tension in the air.

These days I began to see slowly people's masks crumbling and revealing who they truly are. Whle some have been great, others really leave a nasty impression. It begs me to question, underneath this mask I dawn each day, who really am I and will I be able to accept if really deep down, I am a monster?

As such, The Mar feels down these days. The anger pent up in me all this time is taking its toll and as such it is slowly driving me nuts. The last thing I would ever wish for is for someone to be at the brunt just because he or she happens to be there with me.

The Mar apologizes to the advocates on the award winning blog-spot for again asking them the permission while he goes for another sabattical. I just want peace and tranquility but the more I search for it, the chaos I unearthed. The Mar again must undergo another ritual to purge his soul of the anger, the demons in him, Wish me luck people.

Spotlighting on...Death Tribute

2010-04-07T10:24:00.000-07:00

Death is a natural part of the life cycle. No living thing is beyond death and no one really understands why and what really is life after death.

The biggest impact of death is the one felt by those left behind. They are the ones who has to go on every remaining minute with the fact that the ones departed is never going to return to their lives, They have to deal with the fact that they have to go on living without ever hearing the laughter, the tears and the emotions felt and created by the ones that died.

The spotlights today pay its respects to one of his long lost friends, whom just passed away this afternoon, at 4plus on the 7 of April 2010. My friend Shafaat, passed away in a motorcycle accident near my place. He will be 22 this year.

The Mar regrets not keeping touch with him and wishes that he even has the last chance to have one last conversation with him. The group of us used to be so tight, we used to hang out and play soccer all the time, disturb all the pretty girls down the road and often get into many mindless misadventures. However, in passing time, various commitments slowly tear apart the group and as such we all lost touch with each other.

The award winning blog-spot today wanna send out a message, find some time for each other. Death comes unplanned and in many ways, most unsuspectingly and thus everyday could be yours or someone's last day on earth. Spend some time, be it in non-stop conversation or just silent appreciation. Treasure each passing day and never waste your opportunities. Quit whining about wanting people to take care of you, we are the ones who take care of ourselves and as such it is our responsibility to ensure we not waste each day complaining about some menial issues but to pay gratitude for each breath that we take.

Whether you are an advocate or a maggot, remember you are not beyond death, Thus live hard and love hard, peace and understanding.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF SHAFAAT. I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING A GOOD FRIEND AND NOT BEING THERE FOR YOU. WE ALL LOVE YOU BROTHER, WE MISS YOU.

Spotlighting on...The Bigger Picture

2010-04-01T13:00:00.000-07:00

We choose how we want to see life. Whereas one individual could be seeing green, a totally different individual will see that same sight as completely red.

Everyone is unique in their own ways. As such, there will forever exist conflicts, be it minor or major. A clash of egos, misunderstandings or just plain dumb unlucky, whatever the reason is, there will eternally exist arguements and wars.

I honestly believe that while we often never could change other people from being themselves, we can change our mindset. It is down to us as to whether we want to consider what the other is proposing or reject it altogether.

The bigger picture is at the end of it all, what truly is the priority? Why does the world sometimes seems so caught up in their petty squabbles and not see what really is the important thing in life, humanity? We all argue over work, love, politics,games, religion but can there ever be a day where everyone will agree that the salvation of our only planet, the need to rediscover our soul , that slowly devoured via time, technology and hatred.

The Mar today ends this episode with an advice, let us all stop our petty fights, our unnecessary squabbles and just live in peace. The world is a dark place but let us all light it up with laughter, with joy and the radiancy of our hearts, even warmer than the shining star up high above. The award winning spotlights bids adieu for now.

SIDE-NOTE: ST IS HALF DEAD LISTENING TO MUSIC STARING BLANKLY AT THE MAR AT 4AM. IT IS ULTRA CREEPY. TO NAS, MORTAL KOMBAT IS SO MUCH COOLER THAN STREET FIGHTER. PS SHELLIE, I AM A GENIUS.

Spotlighting on...Eyes

2010-03-30T12:09:00.000-07:00

There is an ancient saying, the eyes are the windows to your soul.

Everyone in this world at some point faked their emotion. Maybe it is to not hurt someone else, maybe it is to get what they want, but whatever it is, they all faked it at some point of time in their lives. However, not even the best of liars are able to hide the truth shining in their eyes.

I tend to spot someone with sad eyes. They are the ones who smiles, laughs hard but inside drowning in sorrow, screaming silently for help via their retinas. The truly saddening thing is that The Mar often never asks the person the problem and often let it be. My excuse is that I just do not wish to intrude in a person's personal business and as such I really feel guilty sometimes.

The Mar cannot help everybody, heck he cannot even help himself fight of his financial problems. However, I urge my advocates to just do something simple, to simply look at the eyes of the person who is communicating with them. If they can spot the rage, the sorrow and the sadness shining from the eyes, I urge you to just be there for the person. Do not ask them the problem, instead just be there all the time and maybe in due future, they will open up to you.

The eyes never lies. It is from there you can tell how much love, it is from the eyes you can tell how troubled that someone is and it is from the eyes that you can honestly judge the person's character. Words can easily sway someone to do someone's bidding but from those windows you can tell the genuinity of a man or woman.

The spotlights ends with an advice, never be blinded by words, be moved only by actions from the heart, testified by the eyes.

SIDE-NOTE: THE MAR HAS NOT FORGOTTEN HIS PLANS TO STEAL SHANKY'S JACKET. ALSO THE MAR WELCOMES NAS G ON FACEBOOK AND ADVISES RUI WEI TO CONTINUE SINGING THAT MALAY SONG. ST, PLEASE STOP DISTURBING WOMEN!

Spotlighting on...Newspaper Article

2010-03-28T12:11:00.000-07:00

Today, I read an article about a baby's death due to an illness and how the mother took the trouble to get a professional photographer to take snapshots so as to forever immortalize that child in memory.

Honestly I felt a tear dripping down my eyes. It must be so devastating for any parent to lose a child and as such my heart goes out not only to the ones in article, but also to anyone who has lost a child.

Today the spotlights would like its advocates, be it whatever religion, race or faith, to please just offer a minute of silence upon reading this post and say a prayer for all the children in the world. Be it the joyous ones, the ones abused or neglected or the ones who had passed away, let us all offer a prayer for their souls.

The Mar advises to all parents, be it thge working ones or the ones at home, do your best to have time for your kids. They need you, love you and look up to you. They follow by example and whether you like it or not, you are their role model.

To the ones who are abusing your child, please just stop. No reason, no excuse whatsoever permits you to do such a dastardly deed. To either emotionally or physically abuse a young innocent child is by far for the lack of the better word, down right despicable.

Parents who have lost children, today, tonight my tears are for you. I do not know why this sudden downpour on my face but I am not ashamed. I cry for every parent at this moment who has lost a child, be it by any means. Be strong and just know, the best way to remember them, is by keeping that love alive.

Until the next episode of the spotlights.

NOTE: THE MAR REPEATS HE FEELS NO SHAME IN CRYING OVER THE NEWS ARTICLE.

Spotlighting on...Philosophies of Mar

2010-03-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

The spotlights today shines on two very important philosophies in the way of Mar. These philosophies are pivotal in my life and every single advocate must know what what they are and what they meant.At first, it will sound nonsensical but rest assured, there is a method to my warped logic and I do hope my advocates further understand my different style of looking at things.

PHILOSOPHY 1: LIFE IS METAL

The common gripe we often hear is that life is totally unfair. We often complain about how things are going and that often things never go on as planned.

Life is metal. It simply simplifies the fact that life is very cold and cruel. However it is down to us to bend that piece of metal to whatever shape we want. Just like bending a strip of metal, in order to achiever our dreams, you need to put in that effort, energy and dedication.

Ultimately, it is our own lives. There will always be jerks who would get in the way or try to bully us into submitting to their will. My advice, fight back in the proper channel. Never let emotions get the better of us or that piece of metal will never be in the shape of your preferred design. Stand up and voice out. I believe in justice and that at the end of the day, quality will always shine through. Go down the path you want, not a path handed to you. That is the true hallmark of a geengster.

PHILOSOPHY 2: LOVE IS LIKE FISH

Nobody took me seriously when I handed out this philosophy. However, I am dead serious about this and thus would like to explain the logic behind this seemingly insane statement.

Love is like fish. In order to get the right partner, like fishing you have to cast the right bait at the right location. Who you end up with is totally the result of your own choice and that choice is made by how you choose your partner.

When you are in a relationship, you have to know how much love, dedication and control, just like cooking a fish. Too much fire, love will overcook,suffocate your partner. Too little and they will feel utterly neglected, Also, you have to defend your fish from other hunters, aka third parties. Thus, fish is a great metaphor for my views on love and I do hope people will understand my metaphoric way of thinking.

CONCLUSION
I do seriously hope that someday, the entire world would just stop with all the crimes and arguments and hold hands in unity, even if it is after my death, even if I never ever will be remembered. The spotlights closes another chapter for now

SIDE-NOTE: I WILL SECRETLY RECORD TEE RUI WEI SINGING THAT MALAY SONG SOMEDAY, SHANKY, I STILL HOLD FIRMLY TO THE SECRET LOVE THEORY OF THE DISLIKED SPECIMEN HAVE FOR YOU AND CRYSTAL, I AM A VIRTUOUS MAN

Spotlighting on...Just my advice

2010-03-19T08:54:00.000-07:00

The ones who has been following the spotlights will notice something very crucial about my writing which is, I never once wrote in detail about what happens in my life or in that current day. I usually write in vague about the details and just focus on the minute details on the emotions I felt at that point of time. Also, I usually write about something lessons I learn from some weird moment in my life or just spill out anything totally random.

I think that really is the difference between the spotlights and most of the blogs I read so far, I never once treated the spotlights as a diary. Instead, I look at this blog-spot as a space, my space to impart whatever knowledge I posses, be it stupid or irrelevant, my space to also add that little bit of humor in the lives of those who read. I am not a funny man but in writing, I just hope that I be able to add a smile to someone, even if there is just one someone, it will really felt like a success.

In 26 years, I have nothing major to be proud of. No significant talent to boast nor am I a high flyer in the working world. I The Mar has seemingly never ending financial woes and would often have to just look with envy at all those around him, possessing all the latest gadgets, swapping stories about their travels.

As such, this spotlights truly felt like my only significant contribution in my life. It is here I feel like I can truly voice out myself. As such, I rather not share what happened to me but instead share what I feel about things and my opinions.

Today, the award-winning spotlights just like to advise to my advocates, do not be who you are, instead be who you can be. There is more to the world than what you see and now and as such, know more about what you don't. For one day, just one lousy day, why can't the world stop arguing and hold hands in unity. Myself included, I too am guilty of being self-centred at times and as such this message too serves as a reminder to not only the advocates of Mar but also to me in the future when I reread this, the message to stop trying to see what is best for me but to find what is best for us.

Dedicated to the people I care, it hurts me to see all of you slowly turn on each other. It is not everyday, I make this plea but I make it now, see the truth on yourself from the another person's perspective and thus change for the better. Let us all get along and stop the conflicts, one conflict at a time.

Insane as this sounds, I love this world even if my life sometimes feel like a cruel joke. So to all my advocates, I love you and please do your part to spread the message of love and understanding even if I am gone. The spotlights for now....

Spotlighting on... A Poem I wrote

2010-03-14T08:44:00.000-07:00

The spotlights today shines upon a poem I wrote. I just though I share it with my advocates of Mar and hope they gave me feedback if the poem is nice or if it truly suck.

Once, on a starry night,
With no one on my left nor right
With nothing more than a drink from some close by taverns
I lie in silence and gaze upon the heavens
I marvel in the beauty of the night sky
and all that decorate it up that very high
Lost in that thought my mind began to wander
Leaving all that is from this earthly encounter

Under that night sky my mind wander
Left nothing but the body under the sky splendour
That moment I feel elevated
My whole self felt so rejuvenated
The worries that clouds me so much
Disappears the instant my mind left my touch
The failures that plague me too cease
I finally felt that moment of peace

In learning not to fret and just slow down
I learn not to be end up as a clown
One who knows when they run so far
Nor much and where they were and where they are
My mind was drowning in sorrow
My body narrow and my heart so hollow
I was wallowing in self pity
It was a sight so less pretty

Lost somewhere I cant recall
I collapse and slowly fall
That last few drinks I drank to wipe the nightmare
Did nothing but a dark cold stare
Only when I ponder upon the night sky
The image of neverending in black up high
Only when I lost my mind from all that pain
I found my soul and the beauty of life yet again

Now I pick my feet with nothing in my head
Like the roses Alice painted red
The Alcohol swirls but I regained my swagger
My hurt is gone and I feel better
In a sudden I stagger, my balance and more
I collapse and hit my head on that hard floor
In that final moment before I see the light
I finally saw what was most important that was out of sight
As my eyes again stare upon high mona lisa in black
What was most important is the ones who love me back

The award winning spotlights closes this episode with this reminder, I will steal Shanky's jacket and as such will need accomplices to help me carry out this bidding. Contact me at mar_cloud@live.com.sg to help me steal that jacket.

Spotlighting on....The Way of the Mar

2010-03-14T01:03:00.000-08:00

In life, we can only plan so much but often unforeseen circumstances throw a spanner into the works and thus we tend to end up somewhere different from what we originally planned.

This episode of the spotlights, The Mar decides share his philosophies to enlighten the growing number of the advocates of Mar, the 'Marfians'. The spotlights shines on the ways of The Mar.

The Mar's real name is Ummar Bin Mohd Noor and I was born as the eldest son in my family in the year 1984. The first thing that people will ask me or comment to me upon the first encounter would be just how tall I really I am. I do admit that at 1.9m, I tower over most Singaporeans. While I would thank anyone if they buy me a helmet for my birthday due to my always banging on something beacuse of my height, I would rather receive a Playstation 3 instead. My finger is in your direction Serene.

The Way of The Mar:

LOVE IS LIKE A PIECE OF FISH
Love is like fish, you have to cast the right bait at the right place in order to get the ideal fish that you seek. Also, in a relationship, you have to have a balance, too much love and you end up suffocating your partner, too little love and you may end up losing them, just like cooking fish, the right amount of flame so as to not over or undercook your fish. For the record, Nica,sashimi is raw fish salad.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO BE
The Mar firmly believes that everyone has a say, a choice as to where they want to be and that they end up in their current predicament bacause of their own past choices. When my ex-fiance left me, i was hurt and depressed. My close friends supported me and thus made me realise that while they can shower me with all the love and support in the world, only I and I alone decides how I am going to be. I can also choose to call a potato a tomato but I choose not to.

LIFE IS METAL
Life is not like wood, it is metal. Life is cold and heartless and is never fair. However, we decide how much we want life to dictate us by the amount of strength we put in trying to bend that piece of metal. We will always be defined as to not by what we have but we died in trying to achieve. My current goal is to bend that metal and use it to distract Shanker as I continue my attempts in stealing all his jackets.

For more life lessons in the ways of Mar, contact him via his mobile or email him at mar_cloud@live.com.sg. The award winning spotlights wishes everyone peace and again remind that the writer wants a Playstation 3 for his birthday present.

SIDE-NOTE: SHANKY, SOMEDAY I WILL GET THAT JACKET

Spotlighting on...Mar = Playboy?

2010-03-12T07:29:00.000-08:00

The spotlights returns to shine on an important ongoing debate amongst the advocates of Mar. No it is not the Jack Neo infidelity saga, nor is it whether Ris Low makes a good condom ambassador. The question on the lips of people is whether, me, The Mar is a playboy?

For those of you who do not know nor understand the meaning of the word playboy, it is simply defined as a man who have many flings, relationships, and/or one night stands with many women, either at the same time span or at very short time intervals.

This is the various reasons as to why people tend to think that The Mar is a playboy:

1. THE MANNER OF HOW I SPEAK
Shanky, the genius writer of my sister blog-spot made an interesting point known to The Mar. In one of our many msn conversations, he pointed out to me that I am a very sweet talker. My initial thought then was to steal his jacket and then blame the theft on Vivien. However, I decided to cancel the theft and instead search my soul for answers to see if Shanky has made a valid statement.

In order to do so, The Mar sat quietly in an empty room with nothing but his underwear. With only the sounds of G-Dragon flooding his room via speakers, he closes his eyes and chants yama yama yama repeatedly. Slowly but surely, suppressed memories began to surface. This include conversations with all the women that has come and gone in my life as well as memory of me stealing a piece of chocolate and then blaming the theft on my younger brother.

Shanky has made a truthful statement, The Mar is indeed a sweet talker.

2.THE CLOTHING OF THE MAR
At some point in recent history, The Mar asked a random stranger in the changing room at his workplace,

THE MAR: DO YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE A PLAYBOY?
STRANGER: YES
THE MAR: WHY?
STRANGER: ITS THE WAY YOU DRESS

Somebody please explain to me or that stranger in the changing room just which part of a SHIRT, VEST and a PAIR OF JEANS that I wore is screaming out playboy because I seriously cannot find a link! Does my wearing a smart casual style when I want to go out and chill emits the aura of playboy to strangers all around? Or is just me?

3.THE ATTITUDE
I love women. There are many reasons why I love women but to publicly state them would be disturbing in more ways than one. Anyway,as such I tend to be cheeky amongst the women in my life, be it my loved one or my friends.

My attitude in life has always been to work hard and play hard. Whenever I work, I put my full focus and dedication even if it burns me out. When it comes to play, to socialize, I joked hard and laughed just as hard as I work. Why then do people misunderstood The Mar? To again discover the reasons, The Mar still continue to sit in the dark room in his red underwear and continued chanting yama yama yama.

The past revealed to me that my carefree and out-spoken personality is the main culprit as to why the public sees me as a playboy.

CONCLUSION
The Mar understands why people tend to pass the pass judgment that he is a flirt, a playboy. However I state that I am not a playboy and that whenever The Mar is in a relationship, he seriously value faithfulness. I cannot however 100% guarantee that this will not change as life has the tendency to make the maker of a statement to eat his own words.

The spotlights end again with reminder, I am who I am and judge me for what you think I am but only I and not you knows who I really am.

SIDE-NOTE: I AM STILL DOING MY BEST TO DISPOSE ANY REMAINING EVIDENCE THAT POINTS OUT I WAS A PLAYBOY.

Spotlighting on...The Recent Activity in the life of Mar

2010-03-07T09:06:00.000-08:00

First and foremost, an apology to all the advocates of Mar for the recent absence. With so much tasks at hand, I apologize that I am not able to hold and subsequently post the interview for the winners of the USS SEX SYMBOLS MARCH. I congratulate the winners and apologize that I am not able to keep my end of the bargain in holding the one on one session.

The Mar is traumatized at work. My recent assignment is to take pictures of women posing with topless hunks. While I truly enjoy living out every men's fantasy of handling with numerous hot different women on a daily basis, having to see a man with much better build than me humping a bed sheet and a pillow in nothing but a tiny g-string is truly disturbing.

During this recent experience, I truly absorb some very important life lessons that now I want to impart to my advocates of Mar, dubbed by fellow advocate Hanah, the 'marfians'.

LIFE LESSON 1: WOMEN IS AS EQUALLY HORNY AS MEN'
In my entire 26 years of living on god's green earth, I have the chauvinistic thinking that we, the males are the more sexually aggressive gender. I now publicly admit that I am absolutely wrong on this one. Women is just as horny as the men. I overheard this while I was working:

GIRL1: OH MY GOD! WHERE ARE MY BOYS?

GIRL2:THEY ARE SO HOT! I AM SO HAVING WET DREAMS TONIGHT

GIRL1:WITH WHICH ONE?

GIRL2:I DON't REALLY CARE. MAYBE ALL

GIRL1:AT ONCE? WOOO I SO.....

I really have to dig deep down mentally and spiritually to focus on the tasks at hand. Now, I will have to not only take more time in my dressing, I also aspire to have a better body so that women will also fantasize about me. I hoped that ST share the same willpower as me.

LIFE LESSON 2: A GOOD BODY WILL DO WONDERS
During the event, some women took off their underwear, either bra or panties and throw it to the hunks on stage. I do not know if it is due to their being intoxicated by numerous glasses of vodka martinis or that they are truly horny but I am willing to bet that the men's killer abs and chiseled body play a role in the women losing control.

The men really must have worked very hard to attain such a great build and I just wish I have the opportunity to talk to them in giving me some fitness tips. I too yearn for adulation and wish in the long run, pretty hot women would also throw their underwear at the pc screens upon reading episodes of the spotlights.

LIFE LESSON 3: THE MAR GETS NERVOUS WHEN HE IS SEDUCED
I now admit it publicly. The Mar gets truly nervous when he is approached by a pretty woman. This is a flashback of a recent example, happened of course at the event:

THE MAR: (WATCHING COMPUTER TO MONITOR PRINTER PROGRESS}

BLONDE: HELLO,DO YOU MIND HELPING US OUT?

BRUNETTE:YEAH, WE ARE LOOKING FOR OUR PICTURE

THE MAR: SURE, I FIND IT FOR YOU (LOOKS UP)

BLONDE: OH THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

THE MAR: HMM LEMME SEE, WHO ARE THE ONES IS THE PICTURE?

BLONDE: OH! (COMES REALLY CLOSE TO THE MAR) (SOFT TONE) IT IS THE ONES WITH 4 BEAUTIFUL WOMEN

THE MAR:OH MY GOD LADIES! YOU ARE MAKING ME NERVOUS! I AM SHAKING RIGHT NOW

I then fumbled through the applications and search furiously for the picture. Looking back, I now realize that this incident taught me to avoid sexy salesgirls. I do not want to buy something unnecessary just because the salesgirl whisper on my ear or hold my hand in a gentle manner. I stressed that I am a one woman man so Crystal, trust me. Really, I am a faithful partner.

CONCLUSION
This recent activity has truly enlighten myself. I now look at life in a much clearer and different perspective and as such I vow to step up my gym routines to attain that hunky figure. The award winning spotlights ends with this piece of advice, never ever judge a book by the cover.

SIDE-NOTE: AJ, ST, SHANKY, I WISH YOU WERE THERE WITH ME AT THE EVENT. SO MANY HOT BABES,ONLY 2 EYES. SIGH!

Spotlighting on... ANNOUNCEMENTS!

2010-03-03T08:40:00.000-08:00

For the month of March, the results of the USS SEX SYMBOLS will be published on the spotlights' sister blog-spot

http://shankyshakur.blogspot.com/

The spotlight will shine upon the winners and feature them in the future episodes of the spotlights! That means, the winners of the USS SEX SYMBOL MARCH will be individually interviewed by The Mar and be immortalized via the award winning blog-spot.

The Mar also takes this opportunity to clarify 2 of the most important questions that has been raised throughout the week.

QUESTION: IS ST REALLY A FACEBOOK ADDICT?
Yes, he is. However, The Mar is doing his very best to not only pry him away from virtual reality but to also introduce him to the teachings of Mar.

QUESTION:WHY DO YOU CHOOSE DEBBIE WONG AS THE LEADER OF THE ADVOCATES OF MAR?
Debbie Wong has not only been my dedicated follower of the spotlights, but has also displayed the exemplary Mar values. Also I find Debbie Wong very cute and as such suitable to the FACE OF THE ADVOCATES.

The spotlights will publishe the interviews when they are ready. The spotlights will be back soon with more tips, tricks, news, rants, comments and girl-watching tactics. Be faithful and join the advocates of Mar. Till then, spotlights says adieu.

Spotlighting on...ASKING A GUY OUT

2010-02-25T09:25:00.000-08:00

This episode is for the ladies. No ,The Mar has not forgotten you females. This episode, I shall share with you the tips and tricks I learned from all the women I had known in my life, be it the ones who asked me out, the ones who had dated me, the ones who I share a relationship with and the ones who are just plain platonic.

In this day and age, a woman asking a man out for a date is no longer seen by society as strange or unfemine. The fact remains that the biggest reason why a girl never asks a guy out is that she thinks that the guy may think of her as utter shameless and aggresive. The Mar now lists down the factors as to why girls fear to voice out

FACTOR1: Fear of what people may think of her
FACTOR2: Fear of rejection
FACTOR3: Thinks that guy someday will ask her out
FACTOR4: Fear of her current partner.

For FACTOR4, I seriously advise that the girl reevaluate her relationship. That or I recommend sitting in a bathtub full of ice and meditating. Alternatively, The Mar could just sent one of his advocates, Serene to just knock some sense into her. Value your partner please!

For FACTORS 1 2 and 3, The Mar shall now dispense to all of you the tips and tricks of asking a guy out. Unlike the techniques I share for the men, this techniques are not tested by me but instead on me. Again I state that while all these technques are not 100% guaranteed of results, there are still worth a shot and as such not be scorned off.

THE TECHNIQUES OF THE MAR FOR LADIES

STEP1: MENTALITY
Some of the ladies fear that society may deemed them as shameless, aggresive or even worse a slut if the lady make the first move. These fears are totally understandable. As such, The Mar recommends that first the lady close her eyes and take a deep breath. Clear your minds of any thoughts and then begin to think to yourselves, THIS IS MY LIFE.

Remember, no one is living your live for you and as such, you must begin to take charge of your choices. Ignore those who judges you or make spiteful comments as these comments are nothing more than just poisons to your self esteem. Waiting is simply a waste of time and if you choose to wait, his eyes may fall on someone else. Remember, the first step is to tell yourself, this is your life and the time is now.

STEP2: PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE
Ladies, do your research on the guy. Find out what his interests are, his favourite hang outs and what he likes to do in his free time. All this is to prepare yourself in choosing a location for the date. Also try to do some background checks on him to see if he is a jerk or not. Asking out a downright jerk will really not only lead to a heartbreak but also lead you to all sorts of new problems which will in the long run hurts your self esteem.

If you girls happen to ever ask a jerk out and that jabroni insulted or make fun of you, feel free to contact The Mar. I will get my genius writer Shanky of my sister blog spot to show him just what is the true meaning of a smackdown.

STEP3: PREPARATION
Prepare as to what you want to say and how you say it. Role play with your friends to get the tone and manner right. Also think clearly of what you want to say and practise your speed of speech. Sometimes when we are nervous, we tend to speak really fast so avoid that. Also, prepare yourself for the best case and worse case scenario. Remember, 70% of the time, the man will reject the woman.

The key here is having what to do prepared for both good and bad responses. This is also referred to as damage control. This means that whatever happens, you are prepared for the consequences, thus teaching you the lessons in preparation. Being prepared also helps boost your confidence in life.

STEP4: DRESSING
Do not overdress. Dressed just the way you usually do. Never ever once change yourself for a man as in the long run, the man will usually think of you as a pushover. Also, dress the way you usually do to show your true colors and who you really are. A man that expects you to dress the way they like is usually looking at you for superficial value and as such you should think to yourself, do you want to end up being with him just because he thinks you look good. Go with a man that accepts and see the real you, the one who sees the personality, the character and not the one who only sees your cleavage.

The Mar states that while he sees the women's cleavage, he is not a pervert. He also sees the women from the inside. Crystal, again please believe me.

STEP5: SMELL
Do not go overkill with the perfume. Just use the right amount. Also, wearing the right perfume will also win the man over subconsciously. Man likes to see a neatly dressed woman who smells just nice, not one who they can smell like from a mile away. One of my male friends, He Sheng Tao or better known as ST, however is an exception.

By the way ST is very good looking and still single. Feel free to try all the tricks and techniques shared here on him.

STEP6: ASKING
Make sure the man is alone when you ask him. Walk over to him slowly, posture all straight and with your face smiling.

WRONG THINGS TO SAY!

I WANT YOU RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW
I AM A GIRL STANDING IN FRONT OF A BOY, ASKING HIM TO LOVE ME
HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME
I AM WOMAN, YOU ARE MAN, LETS DO THINGS TOGETHER
IS YOUR NAME 'TAE YANG"?

Go with a simple hello. Here is an example of the proper way

HI, ARE YOU FREE THIS WEEKEND. I WOULD LIKE IF YOU ACCOMPANY TO.....

ERR WHY? ARE YOU ASKING ME OUT?

WELL, I JUST WANT YOU TO FOLLOW ME TO... IF YOU ARE NOT FREE THEN I UNDERSTAND BUT IF YOU ARE, HOW ABOUT YOU SPEND TIME AND JUST HANG OUT WITH ME.

This is just one example. Do not tell him straight up you find him hot or cute as that will really sparks a man's ego. Give him the hint that you like him but too direct. Keep him guessing. If he chases you for the answer then it means you got his attention. If he appears none too interested then I suggest it is best you ladies get someone else.

CONCLUSION
The Mar today again welcomes anyone to call via his cell or email at mar_cloud@live.com.sg. There, I will help advise further on what to do and the right and wrong ways of pursuing a man. Till then, the award winning spotlights stops here for now.

SIDENOTE: LADIES, ST AND SHANKY ARE STILL SINGLE AND UP FOR GRABS. THE MAR HOWEVER, HAS BEEN SNARED BY CRYSTAL AND ANY ATTEMPTS ON LURING HIM AWAY WILL RESULT IN CRYSTAL VIOLENTLY ASSAULTING THE GIRL WITH VERY SHARP KNIVES.

SPOTLIGHTING ON...ASKING A GIRL OUT

2010-02-24T09:55:00.000-08:00

By the demand of the advocates of Mar, the spotlights shall today shine on the proper techniques on how to ask a girl out.

Many of the males I know fall for a certain females but never made the move. They keep their feelings hidden or worse, ask someone to ask for them. The Mar finds this as utterly wrong and shameful, why get someone to do your dirty work? If the man have the heart to fall for her and is willing to suffer and die for her, then why not just the courage to approach that same someone and ask her out.

This boils down to a few factors:

FACTOR1: Fear of Rejection
FACTOR2: Fear of Humiliation
FACTOR3: His friend is also in love with that same girl
FACTOR4: He is attached

For FACTORS 1,2 and 3, The Mar will now dispense his techniques, the sacred art, handed down through years of hanging out with playboys. These are tried and tested, not 100% guaranteed but still worth a shot.For FACTOR 4, I will get Shanky, the genius writer of my sister blog spot to beat the hell out of you.

THE TECHNIQUES OF THE MAR

STEP1: MENTALITY
Clear your mind from all that porn and think to yourself, EVEN IF I AM REJECTED, I STILL AM ALIVE.You will still have to face life no matter what and fact is 80% of the time, you will be rejected so seriously, what have you got to lose? In school, The Mar asked a girl out and she said no, I was laughed at by my entire cohort of friends. I smiled and said no problems. A few days later, I asked another girl out and she said yes. The point here is not that I was a playboy but to state that not everyone will reject you. Crystal, please, I have changed for the better, really!

STEP2: THE SMELL
Invest in a good perfume. No, not that cheap ones they sell at the night market. Something like Burberry or Sean Jean. Women whether they realize it or not, is attracted to smells. Turn on the women subconsciously with your sensuous smell and not turn her off with your body odor. This step is very essential but often neglected. Don't. If you do, I will again get Shanky to show you the meaning of the word, PAINFUL reminder.

STEP3: DRESSING
Dress neatly. Remember, the way you dress will leave along lasting first impression on that girl of dreams. Debbie Wong, my leader of the advocates once said that colors too tell a story. If she did not say that then I must be drunk but anyway, yes colors too play a part. Wearing black means you are trying to be too cool whereas being plain colorful means you like attention drawn to you. Choose a color that you best describes you. Also, wear an outfit that you are most comfortable with. Do not dress like a gentleman if you hate it as that itself highlights a negative trend of you, that you are willing to change yourself. Remember, a women hates men who are not confident of their identity. Be proud of who you are and remember, if the women turns you down due to what you wear, then she is not the one you should be with.

STEP4: THE WALK
Whatever way you walk, be it a bounce bounce walk like hip hop, or rigid army walk like a Sergeant, just make sure your back is straight. Good posture not only saves you from becoming a hunchback in the future but also highlights not only to the girl but to everyone that you are confident. Again, the key to asking a girl out is confidence and the mentality. Thus your walk will show that and again subconsciously win the girl over.

STEP5: ASKING

WRONG THINGS TO SAY TO HER

YOU CAN"T SEE ME!

YOUR FATHER MUST BE A TERRORIST BECAUSE YOU ARE A SEX-BOMB

YOU ARE GIRL, I AM BOY, LETS DO SOME THINGS TOGETHER

WANT TO GO OUT WITH A HANDSOME MAN?

BABY, YOU TURN ME ON

IS YOUR JAPANESE NAME 'MESO SEXY'?

Try this and you will either scare the girl away or be served with a civil suit. The best way to approach the girl is to come over and say hi. Introduce yourself and honestly states your intentions. If you want to ask her out because she is hot then say so. Put it across this way

HI, MY NAME IS MAR. I BEEN WANTING TO ASK YOU OUT FOR A LONG TIME. WOULD YOU HANG OUT WITH ME?

ARE YOU ASKING ME OUT ON A DATE? WHY ME?

HONESTLY, I FIND YOU BEAUTIFUL. HOWEVER, I TOO WANT TO GET TO KNOW YOUR PERSONALITY AND THUS GET BETTER ACQUAINTED.

Be confident and honest. Whatever happens, the girl will know that you mean well and even if she rejects you then, she will have a good impression of you and maybe even either accept your proposal the second time or recommend you to some other hot girl.

For those whose friend too have fall for that same girl, be honest and talk to them that you too had fall for that same girl. Talk things out and decide on what you guys should do next. Dishonesty is not the best policy for this situations and as such, by being frank, you guys enhance your friendship.

CONCLUSION
For those in doubt or in need of further assistance, feel free to call The Mar at his cell or email at mar_cloud@live.com.sg. Thus the award winning spotlights ends today's episode. Sayonara until the next rendition of the spotlights

SIDENOTE: SHANKY IS VERY STRONG AND AS SUCH AVOID BEING BEATEN BY HIM. DEBBIE WONG, THE LEADER OF THE ADVOCATES, IS HOT BUT ATTACHED SO SORRY GUYS.

Spotlighting on.... THIRD PARTY

2010-02-23T01:59:00.000-08:00

The spotlights shines on the topic 'THE THIRD PARTY'. Ah yes, that dreaded someone in every relationship. The one who suddenly pops up in the couple's life and declare a love interest in one of them and begins to subsequently shamelessly woo that someone.

This topic was brought up by my best friend, AJ in his blog spot( links at the side).Go to his blog spot on his take and opinion on this Third Party issue.

Anyway here are the arguments:

THIRD PARTY
Someone once states that all is fair in love and war. In life, you really cannot control the ones you fall for and as such, the third parties are not able to control how they feel. As such, they do whatever they think is ok to win over the that someone, even though they know that someone is with another someone. Why? To them, they truly believe that they can make that someone happier, that the ones who they fall for deserve so much better than the ones they are with and they believe that with that someone, if really that someone is meant for them, they will see the light and leave willingly for them.

Are they right? Are they wrong? The Mar cannot give a clear answer. Every love story, every relationship varies. For example, the couple may think they are happy, they may think they love each other but then the third party comes and makes them think, do they belong together? Is that someone they are with really loves them as much as they think?

If that person is an abusive relationship and the hero/heroine appears as the Third Party, then are they also right or wrong? Is it right to try and save that someone and let them be happier with the Third Party. However, are they not wrong? After all, if that someone wanted to leave due to abuse, would they not have leave first and not have someone try to woo them away?

Is it also wrong if someone decides to leave the current partner for someone better? It is like life where we strive for perfection. We changed jobs to have better prospects in life and as such that person decided to leave his/her current partner for someone who may be better provide them with whatever they want in a relationship. However, the emotions hurt in the process, is it right to hurt someone else just so we be happy?

THE COUPLE
They may have been together for any period of time, but at any point of time, the appearance of the Third Party is severely unwelcome and thus test the strength of the relationship. Another wise person, or plain drunk man, states that love is like a boat in the ocean. It is inevitable that the boat be rocked by both stormy seas as well as gentle breezes. The Third Party thus serves as a test, to see the resolution of the couple and see if that relationship is meant to last.

The ones in the relationship may or may not have instigated the subsequent chasing from the Third Party. Maybe or maybe not they sent signals to people around them, the ones that say, I am still up for grabs despite who I am with. Maybe they are just plain awesome and is a magnet, a love magnet that attracts all those around them .

The Mar too cannot say if the couple should stay together or not. After all, what if really that Third Party is the one meant for them. However, I do not think it is fair that after being in a relationship for so long, that person just leaves in pursuit of someone else. The times, the sacrifices, the love and the families involved, do they not account for something? Is it not the couple in entering a relationship made a silent unspoken pact, to be faithful to one another and gives the other half his/her devoted time and affection. To not be tempted by the lures of riches nor beauty by the Third Party and be loyal to the ones who were there in their hour of pain.

The couples that appear stagnant, that appeared to have all the love all gone from the eyes of those around them. Who are they to judge what is going on in a relationship. No one but the couple themselves decide if they are still happy or not and as such is it wrong that Third Party makes the assumption that he or she is the better one, the one who truly will make that someone be filled with radiance and joy throughout their lives by choosing to leave the relationship and be with the Third Party. However, if by appearance of the Third Party highlights the cracks of the couples then is the Third Party not right in doing the couple a favor from future heartaches and wastage of time?

MAR SUZAKU'S TAKE
I honestly think in life we do what we believe is right. There is really no right and wrong answer to this and as such I say choose the path that you believe will not compromise your beliefs and morals. If you are the Third Party then do what you think is right, if you are the one being chased, choose who you believe makes you truly happy and if you are the partner is being chased by an outsider, do what you believe is best for yourself and your significant other.

Talk things through and not do something totally rash. Analyse everything and ask for opinions from a totally unbias person. We do not like to see the ugly truth sometimes but in issues about love, the call for unbiassedly is very important. Take the road that makes the ones we love happy. If you believe that your significant other is happier with you, then show them your trust. Remind them not to lead the Third Party on and to let them to clarify with Third Party that nothing more than friendship is welcome.

If your partner seems to favor that someone else then let them go. Feeling hurt and betrayed is unavoidable but do not be consumed by hatred and depression. Do not be consumed by rage and isolate the ones who still care. Do not also think that that someone is the only one for you. Time will heal all wounds. This is a lesson, never assume anything as 100% guaranteed and that truly by letting that someone go for their happiness, you show just how strong a human really can be.

For the Third Party, do what you believe is in the best interest of the one you are interested in. If you truly believe that that someone is the one in a relationship, then think whether if that someone is already happy in that relationship and that in pursuing them are you not just displaying just how selfish you really are. However, if you see that the someone is not happy by any chance and needs a savior, then save them. Provide them the happiness you believe you can shower them with .

CONCLUSION
The award winning spotlights today highlighted some of the points in this whole Third Party issue. Call me at my cell or just email me mar_cloud@live.com.sg for any advice. With that I part with my advocates for now.

PS: The Mar again reassures his beau Crystal that he is not a playboy. The Mar also would like to tell Felicia that Fruit Salad is very very healthy. It has fibers and as such is nice if you eat it raw.

Spotlighting on....MY NAME IS MAR

2010-02-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

The Mar today accompanied his mother to watch the Hindustani movie "MY NAME IS KHAN"

My mother has been dying to watch this movie for ages. However, she has not the opportunity nor the time to grab the tickets. And if she has the time, she has no one free to watch it with her. Thus, The Mar today takes the time to watch it with her.

The movie is awesome. Not only because it is free as I did not pay for the ticket but also because the protaganist, Shah Rukh Khan is a great actor and the movie's message really moved me. The movie preaches to love, not hate, to not judge people by their color nor religion but by their actions and to strive for peace, not war. The movie also reminds me that Kajol is still hot and sexy.

Inspired by the movie, I now lauched the screenplay of my own movie. These are the sneakpeaks of .......

MY NAME IS MAR

ACT 1 SCENE 1
The Mar walks into the USS theme park with his usual stide. His hair messy but his aura so sexy. He turns to his fellow geengster Shanky, who looks at him in approval. He then look up to the heavens, hoping his mentor Kannan has given him the blessings before approaching a complete stranger at the USS theme park's smoking corner.

The Mar: Hello
Stranger: (stares at him but smile)
The Mar: YOU CAN"T SEE ME
Stranger: (stares at him in awe and confusion)
Shanky: Why?
The Mar: Because I can

ACT2 SCENE 27
AJ Junior and Nas G along with The Mar is hanging out at Gek Poh Shopping Centre. All of them has a packet of drinks with them. The Mar, his ice coffee, AJ Junior coffee black and Nas G lime juice. A pretty chinese girl walks past them and the trio silently smile at the girl. The girl notices this and walks away, face all red.

Nas G: That girl is so hot
AJ: Ya
The Mar: (silently staring at the girl)
Nas G: Mar, I want a hot chinese girl, how ah?
AJ: Ask him, he is a playboy
The Mar: The answer lies in how you ask the girl
AJ and Nas G: (stares at The Mar) How exactly do you ask a chinese girl out?
The Mar: Simple. You just say
AJ and Nas G:(waits with bated breath)
The Mar: Please go out with me. WO AI NIE

ACT 44 SCENE 367
The Mar is online chatting with his gerl Crystal as well as his best friends Eva and Nora. Along enter his neighbour's cat Puspa who enters the room and began staring at him

The Mar: Puspa you fat cat. The mascot of geengster, come here
Puspa: Meow
The Mar: Is Debbie Wong cute?
Puspa: Meow
The Mar: That really helps Puspa. Anyway Im chatting with Crystal. She says hi to you
Puspa: Meow
The Mar: Is that all you can say? Meow Meow. Gimme a sign la you jabroni
Puspa:(walks slowly to The Mar and scratches him before walking away)

ACT56 SCENE 78
The Mar with Eva is waiting for Nora. The Mar with his aura of sexy sadly rolls a cigarette while Eva uses her phone to text her friend. She puts down the phone and finds The Mar, smiling to himself like a goat on a cheese sandwich.

Eva: Mar Mar Mar
The Mar: Yes?
Eva: Today I cut my hair
The Mar: Really ah?
Eva: Idiot, you never notice ah?
The Mar: I was staring at other girls. They are sexy.
Eva: Idiot la you. I tell Crystal then you know
The Mar: WA PU YAO. Wait she throw knife at me. Ok OK your hair is nice. It looks like you have a haircut.
Eva: Ok understand

The movie, My Name is Mar, will not only be a box office smash but will also smash box office records. The award winning spotlights again reminds to always love and accept all, hate only the evil. Till then, The Mar bids adieu

PS: For more details on My Name Is Mar, call The Mar now or email him at mar_cloud@live.com.sg. We are still holding auditions on who will play the protaganist The Mar as well the characters like his gerl Crystal and twins Nica and Felicia. The chracter Shanker will be playes by Kanye West and the character Nora is confirmed taken by Era Farida. Eva will be played by Fann Wong whereas Debbie Wong will be played by Ang Ser Chin.

Spotlighting on...Hidden Lessons of Grocery Shopping

2010-02-17T01:30:00.000-08:00

The Mar today went to do some grocery shopping at Sheng Shiong, Jalan Bahar.

I always helped my mother do her shopping for everyday necessities whenever I could. I learned a lot of tips and tricks in picking out bargains, avoiding wastage and also life lessons. Yes, life lessons when it comes to grocery shopping. I shall share with you the lessons I learnt in this shopping trips with my mother

LESSON1: LIFE IS NOT LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES
Forest Gump famously made the statement that life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get. I disagree totally. The boxes of chocolates usually states what kind of chocolates is inside. As such Forest Gump you are absolutely wrong on this one.

LESSON2: POTATOES HAVE EYES BUT THEY ARE BLIND
This teaches me that while we see a lot of things with our eyes, we tend not to see the underlying truth. For example, we see a potato, but do we really see that potato? Is the potato just a potato or do we see the potential, like becoming potato chips, wedges or mashed potatoes? The same apply to us, how many times have we looked down on someone, thinking they can go no further? As such, we should try to avoid this altogether and really open our eyes, the ones in our heart.

LESSON3: BARGAINS ARE EVERYWHERE
In life, we hope that the steps we took are the best choice at that particular junction. However, once in a while or in my case almost every time, we made the wrong choice and thus took the long road to success. If we evaluate the options like how we scour the market for the best bargain, we will be able to minimize mistakes and as such not go through painful mistakes. Be patient and think things through. By being patinet, you may be able to get a better choice, its like trying to find a carrot for $1. If you are patient, you may find a promotion that says 2 carrots for $1.50. Thus you save 50cents!

LESSON4: DO NOT YELL "YOU CANT SEE ME" TO THE CASHIER
As a fan of John Cena, I always use his catchphrase at any possible time, anytime I feel like it. However yelling at the supermarket not only get the people to look at you in a strange manner but also gets the cashier to ask for your identification when you buy cigarettes. For the record, the cashier thought I was 17.

LESSON5: IT TAKES MORE THAN ONE INGREDIENT TO COOK A DISH
In life, you cannot stand alone. You need love and support and whover says they stand alone is either a liar or plain ungrateful to the ones who has been giving them support in the background.. Never once forget the ones who supported us and that without them, there is no us and we will not be where we are today.

The Mar states that he still yells "YOU CAN'T SEE ME". I guess that is the one lesson I really cannot get through my small black heart. The award winning spotlights concludes with this, lessons are everywhere, it is up to us to learn. Nica, remember that fish can be made into sashimi.

PS: The Mar states that he is without a shadow of a doubt very sexy. The Adonis of Sentosa also states that he misses steamboats and his beau Crystal.

Spotlighting on...Declaration of Love

2010-02-13T02:28:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day. The day where the feelings of love is celebrated. Be it love for a spouse, a partner, a family member, a friend or whoever, whatever, 14 FEB is the internationally known day where everyone celebrate that oh so wonderful feeling of love.

As such, The Mar too shall pour his heart out on this episode on the Spotlights. Trust me, I am blushing but blogging is the best way I know to express the emotions inside.

I DECLARE MY LOVE FOR MY FAMILY
While I know I have not really been a great son nor brother, had and will continue to make mistakes, I love you and hope that we continue to be a family for maybe a few more lifetimes. The Mar is proud of his family's achievements but also states that he is the best looking one in the family.

I DECLARE LOVE FOR PUSPA THE CAT
The guest judge of February, my neighbour's cat. I find him cute and a very good listener. Usually, he just sits there and let me rub him as I tell him either about my problems or just the happenings of my day. Though he still scratches me time to time, I still love my geengtser mascot, Puspa the cat. Stop scratching me ok!

I DECLARE LOVE FOR CRYSTAL
Thank you for being there for me and showering me with your love and attention. I know I am not perfect but for you, I will try. I miss you so much so today and thus publicly declare the love in my heart for you. I also know that if I mess up, a lot of people reading this is going to come after me.

I DECLARE LOVE FOR THE AWESOME FOURSOME
Nas G, Andi and AJ, we have been friends for like a decade or more and as such I regard you as my family. Though we now are busy and now seldom meet up, I still think of our good and bad times and hope we catch up pretty soon. Friends forever. PS, Andi, Backstreet Boys is so passe

I DECLARE LOVE FOR TMIS PEOPLE
Eva, Nora, Chris, Joyce, Alex, Sarah and many more, I miss you guys a lot. Though some of you are still in contact with me, I hope someday to see all of you together again. I still think of the times, like the time we bullied Alex and miss you guys so much. Eva, I am now used to your deodorant habits and Nora, you still have not cook for me in a long time.

I DECLARE LOVE FOR MY USS PEOPLE
My new found friends. My co workers. In the span of a few months, we have really bonded very well and I am proud to be part of you guys. There are too many names, too little space so this is for all of you. I love you guys. Be it Serene my new right hand person, Hanah, my left hand person, or Debbie Wong, my number 1 follower or the geengsters like Shanky, the founder of my sister blog spot, ST the cameraman, I say may we all forever be friends.

I DECLARE LOVE TO MY PSP
My beautiful pink PSP. I love you so much. You have been giving me entertainment like games, Ayumi music videos as well being there to accompany me throughout my many journeys, You are so familiar with my hands and as such, I think you may actually smell like my hand. Nevertheless, I adore you and though I intend to someday either steal or buy a Playstation3, you are still my sweetheart.

I DECLARE LOVE FOR AYUMI
Ayumi Hamasaki, I adore and love you so much. If I could speak Japanese, I speak in Japanese to say I adore and love you. To me, she is still sexiest, prettiest and hottest thing to hit my pc screens and as such vow to continue to loving her. Someday when you are singing and you see a tall man screaming and fainting, know that its me.

I DECLARE LOVE FOR THE ADVOCATES OF MAR
My beloved readers, without you there is no me. The ones consistently promoting and reading my blog, I thank and love you guys. Please continue to read and donate to the PFOM whenever possible.

With that I conclude the 50th episode of the award winning spotlights. I take this opportunity to also wish my viewers Happy Chinese New Year and that if you drink, drink with me.

PFOM = Pocket Fund of Mar

Spotlighting on.... The Launch of The spotlights sister blog spot

2010-02-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

SURPRISE SURPRISE.....

The Mar has today decided to spotlight on a new development.. Ah yes.... The Launching of the spotlights sister blog spot.....

THE REFLECTIONS

http://shankyshakur.blogspot.com/

This blog spot is managed by the Zen of geengster, Shanky and The Mar is proud to be affliated with a very talented and an up and coming blogger. Judging by his very first post, I dare say he has the aura, the charisma and the talent to even surpass The Mar in literary skills.

His full name is Shankar Ganesh. Born in the year of 1987, June 27, the year of the rabbit. the zodiac sign cancer. Shanky has the ability to tickle your funny bones. However, Shanky is also a very wise man beyond his years and also a very loyal friend.

I thus take the opportunity to tell my advocates to frequent his blog as often as you guys visited mine. Also I would like to state the people I also would like to start their own blogs

BLOG SPOT WISH LISTS:

1. ST

ST should set up a blog spot, tittled CONFESSIONS OF THE SHADES

His blog will tell us his out take on being blasted all the time for his facebook addiction as well sharing tips on photography. I really admire his photo taking skills and as such hope he heed to my suggestion.

2.CRYSTAL

Her blogspot should be named, CRYSTAL FOREVER DIAMOND NEVER

She should share with us the horrors and the joys of dating yours truly as well share with us the tips in having that oh so silky hair. Seriously, her hhair should be in some shampoo commercial. My hair for the record is uhm, lets just say it is average.

3.SERENE

Tittled, SERENE ROARS AND SCORES

At first impression, she looks like a demure and silent girl but trust me people, she is very much the loud person once she gets to know you. As such, I love to read about her take on life as well as her comments on anything be it fashion or just love.

4.SER CHIN

This one I think should be labelled, I AM SER CHIN

I will be her number one fan. Her stories are the best. If she really starts one, I will everyday read her writings and memorized it like a mantra. Ser Chin is awesome and as such this is the one blog spot that really have potential. Man I wish I wish

5.MY MOTHER

I think this one should nbe known as MAR, I AM YOUR MA

I love to know how she thinks. She is the one lady that I have trouble outsmarting and most of my thinking processes as well as my chracter is derived from her. Relatives comment on how we have similar speaking habits and charisma so i guess I want to know her side of the story and how it feels to have me as her son. He He, love you mom

With that, the award winning spotlights conclude this surprise episode and again highlight the launch of the sister blog spot, REFLECTIONS http://shankyshakur.blogspot.com/. That concludes for now.

PS: VIVIEN, G DRAGON IS BETTER THAN TAE YANG

Spotlighting on.....Heartbreaks

2010-02-11T06:24:00.000-08:00

With Valentine's day around the corner, the award winning spotlights shines on heartbreaks. Lets not we forget while we are happily celebrating love, there are also amongst us those love has scorned.

A broken heart or better known as a heartbreak is metaphor used to describe the intense emotional pain or suffering one feels after losing a loved one, either through death, divorce, breakup, being rejected, betrayed or other means.

THE HEART TORN IN 2

A majority of us who have been in relationships should have a fair shair of heartbreaks. The Mar is of course no exception.

The common questions that often recur to the one whose heart is being torn in pieces is

WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME?

DIDNT THEY SEE THAT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH?

HOW CAN I EVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE THEM TO REPLACE? THEY ARE THE ONLY ONE IN MY HEART?

This and a whole lot of other questions may lead to either a loss of confidence, isolation and loss of faith in the next individual who claims to be in love with them, hesitancy in entering a new relationship. Afterall, we did so much, sacrifice a whole lot of blood, sweat and tears and still in the for nought.

Heartbreaks are often unforeseen. It takes us by surprise and as such we never know react logically whenever it occurs. Look no further than The Mar for example, the last heartbreak has me on the verge of depression again and I have to thank a whole lot of friends of mine like AJ Creepy Eyes, Nas G, Nora and Eva for saving me from the abyss of darkness. Truth is, no one is invulnerable to the intense emotions of a broken heart.

It is hard to advise how to avoid heartbreaks. What The Mar would like to do today is give a few tips as to how to slowly recover from a heartbreak. I do not know if they will work for you but this tips sure help me move on rather than be hung up from the past.

TIP1. HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY
In your darkest hours, they are the ones who will be there for you. Use the newfound time and freedom to get closer to them. We are often guilty of neglecting those closest to us in order to make that special someone happy so it is best to rekindle the ties that bind us. I grew closer to my mum after my breakup and even though now we still have our screaming matches, deep down I thank and love her for being my pillar of support.

TIP2. CRY YOUR HEART OUT
Often, we tend to keep our emotions inside. Maybe it is the fact that we are unable to express our true emotions, or maybe its the ego. Guys especially, it is often perceived that a man does not cry. I see that notion as false. People, if it makes you feel better to cry, than by all mean cry your heart out. You can do it privately by yourself or have someone by your side comforting you. It is perfectly natural and you will feel better after crying. I am not ashamed to say I cried. In fact, I think it shows me as who I truly am, a normal human being with healthy emotions.

TIP3. DO NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID
Stupid things here is defined as ultra boozing, drugs, glue or other illegal or unhealthy stuff. While yes they take the pain away, this stuff is in fact damaging you physically and mentally and as such destroying you. That in turn breaks the hearts of those around you that cares a lot for you. Such a vicicous cycle! The question that is begging here is, is it worth breaking the hearts of those around you for one? Is it worth causing those who love you the pain as the pain you are going through right now and if yes, are you really that selfish? If you are then sorry to say but you may actually be one that cause the relationship to break down!

TIP4. FORGIVE
This is by far the hardest thing to do. A whole lot of us would be planning that ultimate revenge on that evil someone that left us. It could be to parade a new partner who you percieve as better, sabotaging that person's new relationship, destroying the career or other unholy ideas. Advocates, remember, revenge is never worth it. While it feels good, soon you will feel hollow. I find it best to forgive that someone. The pain is always there but it will really feel that the chapter is closed and trust me, once you learn to forgive, you will actually be able to move on in life. The Mar did not forgive immediately, no no no. I too succumb to the desire of wanting my revenge by over time, I thought to myself to what end. How much longer do I need to drag this emotional baggage? As such, on a fine day, I close my eyes and forgive from my heart. The pain is there but then for first time in a long time, I am able to feel that sense of peace.

Those who doubt me need only to read my past entries. There you will find my emotionally charged entries, of sorrow and pain and depression. However, continue reading and you will see a slow transformation. It is like watching a caterpillar slowly morphing in to a butterfly. I cannot say I make a pretty butterfly but i sure will make a better looking butterfly than ST.

As such, the spotlights today ends with this to say, to all those that are suffering, I feel you. I know the pain and as such, I will always be here as a friend for the likes of you to either share your pain or just to accompany you while you slowly tear up. I will never be your perfect friend but a friend nevertheless I will be.

Dedicated to the ones who are suffering from heartbreaks at this present moment. I shall never reveal their names but I hope they know that I see their sorrow hiding in their eyes.

PS CRYSTAL I MISS YOU

Spotlighting on....Lovesick

2010-02-10T08:31:00.000-08:00

With Valentine's Day looming around the corner, the spotlight today is on my beau. She has been with me now for a month plus and I feel it is high time I properly induct her into superstardom as a post in the award winning blog spot.CRYSTAL, MY NEW BABY DOLL

Her full name is Teh Ee Ching Crystal but everyone calls her Crystal. I call her baby but then that is too much information for the advocates of Mar. Anyway, she is from Penang, Malaysia. She is very hyper and talkative and loud at times but she is a great person to share your problems with. She is also very independent, headstrong and yet a loveabale person.

Currently She is in Penang for a month and celbrating Chinese New Year with her family. As such, I miss her very much and is so lovesick like a puppy.

Thus The Mar learns a very valuable lesson that I wish to share with my beloved followers. It is always so easy to take someone for granted. Be it a family member, a lover or a good friend, we tend to often just think that they will be there forever and thus not value their time spent with us. We may take advantage or just ignore them and get back to them later.

I say, you only know the true value of someone when they are gone. When you no longer are able to talk to them, share utmost secrets or goings ons with that someone, when that person is no longer the listening ear that once you so rely on that you remember just how important they are. That they are not there to tell you that things are going to be okay, that they are not around to share your joys and successes or they are not present to comfort you from sorrows and failures. Only then you realise how special they are

People, advocates and jabronis, treasure the people that meant a lot to you. Value their time and treat everyone as how you would like yourself to be treated. Do not treat the ones you care about like trash nor abuse them. Love them as they took their time and made their choice to love you back.

I honestly admit, I am lovesick. I miss her so much, that I am not able to hold her and say uhm stuff on Valentine's Day and has to wait a while before she finally return to Singapore. I miss her endless chatter, her quirky habits and her smiles. Fortunately for me it is just a month, but the lesson has been driven deep in my brain and I hope today I help open your guys and girls minds and hearts into valueing each other more.

I end this episode with the saying

LOVE IS NOT LIKE A DISCARDED SLIPPER, IT IS LIKE A PAIR OF SHOES, YOU HAVE TO FIND THE PERFECT PAIR TO WEAR COMFORTABLY. MAINTAIN THAT SHOES WITH CARE SO THAT YOU CAN GO FAR WITHOUT WEARING IT AWAY.

PS: SHANKY, TAKE THAT!

Spotlighting on...The Spritual Journey

2010-02-09T00:14:00.000-08:00

As I have mentioned in the previous post, The Mar has taken a few days sabbatical to undergo his spiritual journey. Sorry to have kept my followers hanging for so long and I hope that that you guys be blessed for having so much faith and love for me.

The spiritual journey that I took is to rediscover that inner sense of purpose in me. Over the weeks I found that while my destination is set, that my goals, dreams and ambitions are there, the road that I took is really leading me fast enough. I fear that the road I am on now will lead me instead into oblivion and as such, I decided to undergo this journey to find that focus in life.

To stimulate the waterfalls in Japan, I set the shower to flow with utmost speed. Then I set a tub of ice and rest my feet in that tub. I then be completely nude so that I be one with the universe and then close my eyes. The lights must be on so that I do not fall asleep as falling into a slumber defeats the purpose of the whole ritual.

Then, I slowly blocked out my thoughts on the present. All around me goes into silence and tranquility befalls The Mar. I then focus my thoughts on my goals. I concentrate on the vision that I wanted for my future and the dreams that I wanted to become a reality.

I then focus on the present, what I am doing currently, my vices and my flaws, my loved ones and my friends, I venture deep into my heat and try to analyze if I had been an individual that people can count on... Whether I am someone people can trust. If I had fulfilled my potential.....

The answers were revealed......

My thoughts have been cleansed.....

I recovered safely and with full focus in life. I now know the paths that I had to take and the steps I have to avoid. I know now what I must do.

I also discovered in my journey that....

1.ST is a facebook addict
2.Nica is a baker
3. Coke light and Diet Coke is 2 separate and different drinks
4.I hate Madonna
5.Debbie Wong is the same shirt size as Teh Ee Ching Crystal
6.Shanky wears a nice jacket
7.Felicia is hot
8.AJ is not as creepy as before
9.Hanah has a shoe fetish
10.Patsy is a nice person
11.Nora has not cook for me in a long while
12.Eva must wear shades
13.My cat is a geengster and a player
14.I miss my Baby
15. Pepsi Twist is not really made from Twisting the bottle cap of Pepsi
16.I hate pineapples
17.My eyesight is getting worse
18.Fish is good for the brain
19.Love is not like a discarded slipper, it is more like a pair of shoes, you must find the perfect pair so that you can walk comfortably for a very long time
20.An apple a day is gonna cost you a bomb in your grocery bills

Thus the award winning spotlights conclude here for now. Rejuvenated, I now will once again regularly blog on my trials, tribulations and also comments on anyone who crosses his mind.
Ser Chin, you rule, Debbie Lee, you drool. The spotlights for now

2010-02-03T06:34:00.001-08:00

Sorry it takes quite a while to update the blog spot. Truth is The Mar is very busy and has been spending time with his beau, Crystal since she is leaving for Penang for a month. I do not how to keep my hormones in check but I try. Anyway without further ado, here are the long awaited results of FEBRUARY SEX SYMBOLS.. Again, I thank Puspa the Cat and hope that the winners help buy cat food for him and the losers to wallow in agony....

MALE NUMBER 3: SHANKY
Oh how the mighty has fallen. It seems that while Puspa admits he looks good on photos and has influence him to the extent of adopting a geengster attitude, he lacks a certain sex appeal. Puspa says that Shanky has sex and humour but he needs to regular spot a pair of smaller shades to reclaim the number 1 spot.

MALE NUMBER 2: WEE GIAP
According to Puspa, Wee Giap has an air of mystery around him. Often misconstrued as arrogant, Wee Giap is actually a very down to earth individual and a very doting father. With handsome features, he looks much yopunger than he really is and such Puspa ranks him 2nd....

MALE NUMBER 1: ST
Puspa loves ST. He says he remind him of a long lost cat. I do not know why but since he is the judge I just say ok. Anyway Puspa also mentioned that ST really looks like extravagant and his manner of speaking very charming. Puspa also mentioned that ST looks like hot and that he should be a playboy. Well done ST... you are MALE FEB USS SEX SYMBOL

FEMALE NUMBER 3: SITI NADIAH
Yes, the resident toyol makes the list. Puspa gets really excited when viewing her photos and is seen doing something disturbing after that. I will not go into that but Puspa mentions that Nadiah is really sexy and playful. It also helps Nadiah loves cats and as such Nadiah gets number

FEMALE NUMBER 2: MONA
Puspa loves Mona. I do not know why but he goes in a frenzy for a while whenever he see the pictures of Mona. He says he loves the attitude, the body and the swagger that is Mona. Puspa also do the same disturbing things when he sees Mona on facebook and ranks Mona number 2.

FEMALE NUMBER 1: ANG SER CHIN
Sexy and weird. Ser Chin wins Puspa over with the hamster story. Puspa loves a woman with beauty, a hint of arrogance, the body that says look but touch your own. I do not know why but Puspa never fails to do even more disturbing things whenever he sees Ser Chin online. I really do not have control over my cat and thus award Ser Chin.... FEMALE FEB USS SEX SYMBOL

I apologize again for such a delay in the episodes of the spotlights. With such a hectic schedule, The Mar barely has time for him to go and do disturbing things. Nevertheless, I vow to use the time in the future to do more disturbing things with a female partner, hint hint someone, do disturbing things alone.

The spotlights will also go on a hiatus for a while.... The Mar has decided to take a journey to cleanse his mind in order to maintain his award winning blog spot. As such be patient advocates of Mar.

PS: ST is a facebook addict

Spotlighting on.....Judge of February

2010-01-27T07:22:00.000-08:00

This episode, the spotlights shines on Puspa the Cat. The guest judge for the USS SEX SYMBOLS for the month of February.

We have a Q and A session with Puspa to find out what makes this feline tick..... and what he looks for in the winners

Puspa, how old are you?

Meow
Translation: My age is sensitive

Ok anyway how do you become so cute?

Meow
Translation: Constant grooming with my tongue. It helps! You should try it.... Just lick yourself all over

Uhm, I will pass.... Anyway you look so adorable.. May I touch your stomach?

Meow
Translation: You touch it I scratch you like hell!

Why can't I?

Meow
Translation: Why? Cause Im a geengster!

How the heck you know that? You are just a cat? Damn that Shanky! He even influence my neighbour's cat!

Meow
Translation: I am seriously gonna scratch you Mar. I was with you whenever you are on facebook remember? Dont make me use the paw!

Relax relax....I give you a chicken

Meow
Translation: Hmm, thank you... It tastes like chicken

Anyway, you are the judge for February Sex Symbol rankings. How do you feel and what do you look for in the candidates?

Meow
Translation: Thanks Suzaku. I Puspa am looking for something that either makes me purr or anyone who buys me some food.

Thats all the time the spotlights have with Puspa. He left me with a scratch before looking for a place to sleep. Despite that, the award-winning blog-spot thanks Puspa the cat for being the guest judge for February. The results will be released on the next edition of the Spotlights.

Spotlighting on....Emperor Mar

2010-01-22T08:32:00.000-08:00

Here I am, on a lazy Friday night, in full uninspired mode. With nowhere to go and no money to spend, The Mar is forced to be at home with nothing but roll up cigarettes and a almost half empty cup of ice coffee for companion.

There was almost nothing to blog or write about until my mind started flying about. It was between thinking of hot women and cheesecakes that I began to wonder, what if I rule the universe? What if, yours truly, Mar Suzaku is your emperor, the master of the world?

I would......

1. MAKE AYUMI AND CRYSTAL MY QUEENS
As a King, I would need a queen. Since I am the master of the world, I would not have to go through a terrible dilemma of choosing only one woman. I get to switch every other night or if I feel like it, I do it to both at the same time. If they do not agree to my demands, I just behead them and get some other hottie as my queen.

2.EVERYONE HAS TO TAP DANCE BEFORE THEY CAN SEE ME
No one shall be spared from this rule. Whatever matters that came up, my minions must tapdance before they can see me. Disobeying this golden rule will result in not only losing the right to see me but to spend 5 hours of watching Singapore Idol non-stop.

3.MAKE EVERYONE USE A HYBRID CAR
Save the environment. Love the earth. Go green.

4. HAVE TELEVISIONS AND RADIOS TALK ABOUT HOW GREAT AND SEXY I AM FOR AT LEAST AN HOUR A DAY
This is to drill and instill into everyone, young and old that I run the show, the planet at my fingertips, the lives at my mercy. I would execute any one who bad mouths the programs and reward those who love seeing my face everyday with a everlasting supply of talcum powder.

5. USE ONLY ONE ANTHEM, MICHAEL JACKSON"S HEAL THE WORLD
Since I am the master of the world, there is not a need for so many different national anthems to be sung. I demand that at 8 am, the entire world sings the famous Michael Jackson song. After which, they will do the tapdance for 2 minutes and then resume in doing whatever it is they are doing.

6.HAVE MEGAN FOX BECOME MY SECRETARY
Besides doing administrative duties, her other responsibilities include being my spokeswoman. However, she is strictly prohibited from hanky panky with just one person, Shanky.

This are some of the things that I will enforce when I became the supreme dictator of the planet Earth. There are many things I would do too like ordering Andi to wear a bikini and walk down Australia but to write every single order would take a lifetime and The Mar is not that hardworking.

The spotlights end with a warning, Do NOT piss The Mar. When the day comes that I take over this planet, the ones that hurt or make me angry are the ones that will feel the wrath of Mar.

PS: I still think ST is a facebook addict

Spotlighting on....Geengsterism

2010-01-20T07:46:00.000-08:00

Lately, the January USS SEX SYMBOL Shanky has been going around with his new catchphrase

"Why? Cause Im a geengster!"

As a result, people have been copying and going around stating that they too are geengsters.

Thus the spotlights today has come up with a checklist to ensure that all aspiring geengsters know as to what is to be expected of them. This is to separate the posers from the players, the haves from the have'nots and also to show Shanky once and for all that while he may have come up with the catchphrase, I am still the man, Mar Suzaku.

NUMBER1: USE THE CATCHPHRASE ALL THE TIME
This is the most basic rule of them all. Use the catchphrase anytime anywhere whenever possible. Be it ordering a pizza, a first date or saying goodnight to your cat, it is essential that the lines of a geengster be uttered, not only to proudly claim that you are a geengster, but also to irritate the hell out of them.

NUMBER2: NEVER QUIT
A geengster must be persistent in chasing whatever they want. Lie, cheat, steal or murder if they have to, a geengster must never say I cannot or I quit. It is ok to worry and be scared but at the end of the day, a geengster will never walk away.

NUMBER3: NEVER SAY NO TO A CHALLENGE
Never say no to a challenge. If there is a glass of vodka in front of you and you know you will get high after that sip, a geengster will stop all thinking process and finish the whole bottle. The model geengster would even then order another drink before either passing out or making a complete idiot of him/herself.

NUMBER 4: BE SHAMELESS
Being embarrassed or shy is a big N O for a geengster. They must be able to walk with confidence, a swagger in their talk and be confident in their sex appeal. They must be able to proudly claim their awesomeness and not be scared about what people would say. As an example, The Mar goes around everywhere and say that he is the Adonis Of Singapore, The S in Sexy and ignore all the backlash that comes with the proclamations.

These are the most basic and essential rules of a geengster. They must be obeyed and disobedience will not be tolerated. Debbie Wong, join us in geengsterism. Debbie Lee, try harder.

The award winning spotlights parts with this for aspiring geengsters, contact mar_cloud@live.com.sg for more details on geengsterism. I will introduce to you the Zen of Geengster, Shanky and together we will make you feel the power of wisdom.

Spotlighting on...IF Death is today

2010-01-19T07:27:00.000-08:00

The spotlights today first and foremost offer condolences to the Haiti quake victims. I am truly saddened by the tragedy and as such have a minute of silence for all those who have died or now suffering the after effects of the devastating earthquake.

The earthquake have made me think. What if today is the last day of my existence on this planet? What if I never wake up, never see the break of dawn, never hear the sound of that irritating bike horn? What if I am dead tomorrow? What if death is today?

WILL I BE MISSED?
The selfish question I ask is that will someone or anyone miss me? I do not know if anyone would cry for me nor I could guarantee there be any mourners. The Mar though narcissistic, would be happy if there is even just one nice soul who would just remember me once in a while in the long run when I am deceased.

WHAT WILL I BE REMEMBERED FOR?
I certainly hope I be remembered for myself and not only for my notoriously random antics, my very limited attention span and my fear of frogs. Maybe AJ could remember me for being nice to always promote his blog-spot http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/ Maybe Shanky and ST could remember me for being their 69 cents brother. Sincerely I pray Eva remember me as always the guy matching her sexy for sexy.

AM I GOING TO HELL?
I know I am but still I hope someone is nice enough to lie to me and say I deserve heaven. I know I deserve to be eternally tortured in the flames of hell and have devils laugh at me for my sins but I rather not and just enjoy being in heaven. The finger is pointing in your direction Crystal.

We live our lives but now I ask. Have we lived it the way we truly wanted it? And if so we did not, did we do anything to try and change it, bend it to the way we want it? How many of us can truly say they lived their lives with no regrets, living life the way they envisioned it, going forth each day without questioning if they had chosen the right path?

Nobody knows what comes tomorrow. So if it so happens that I really be dead in the future, I declare that while life has not been going in my desired direction, I have never gave up and still chase for my dreams no matter what the cost. I hope the advocates of Mar too reflect and reevaluate their lives and grab life by the throat and not vice versa. Make a change before it is too late.

This sounds morbid but Shanky, if I am gone, I entrust you with continuing my blog, ST I trust you with my facebook account and AJ, the heaviest responsibility I trust you to take care of my family. Noura, take care of the USS. Debbie Wong I trust you to take care of Debbie Lee and Eva, I trust you in forever taking care of Crystal for me. Make sure she visit my grave ok.

The award winning spotlights ends with this declaration, this is NOT a suicide post, just a man declaring his love for all his people if ever his time should come.

Spotlighting on....Craving

2010-01-16T08:55:00.000-08:00

Singapore is like a shopper's paradise. Everywhere, east to west, lies a shopping center, big or small, there waiting for a soul to enter and spend their dollar.

In some ways, it is so scary to go out especially with an empty wallet. The temptation to buy some goodies, food or other stuff is ever lingering. It is like there is a hidden demon, lying on your shoulder, whispering and seducing you to part your money on something, be it a food item, a gadget or just some random stuff. I do not know about you but I name my hidden demon Josephine. I can hear her voice, telling me to buy a shirt. I told her to shut up and then buy a cookie.

Seriously, the amount of shopping centers here to me far exceeds the shoppers. Supply exceed demand. While there never will cease the window shoppers, the ones who wanted to buy something is spoilt for choice. They can choose their urban shopping center like say Jurong Point, pick a central place to shop like 313@Somerset or simply the trusted Takashimaya. I sometimes am confused on where to shop and as such, I just sleep at home whenever Josephine tries to manipulate me into buying shirts.

Today, I spotlight on one of my lifetime cravings being fulfilled. I told my beau, yes Crystal as you all now know, about my long time craving for black sesame ice-cream. That episode on Japan hour has me salivating for a long time and as such, I search in vain everywhere for this fabled dessert. It does not help that whenever I think of it, I drool like crazy and as such, I make it a point not to think of black sesame ice cream whenever I am near women.I could just go to Japan and find it but I have yet to strike Toto. THE OBJECT OF DESIRE

Crystal was great in helping me find my ice cream. It is like she has a radar or something that helps her locate things. Maybe she just wanted me to shut up and stop irritating her with my rantings about the ice cream but I thank her nonetheless for assisting me in my quest.

We finally found it at Azabu Sabo at Takashimaya and bought it on the spot. It was awesome. The black sesame ice cream tasted like black sesame. This goes to show that with patience, you can find whatever you want in life. I do not know if life lessons can be taught via searching for ice-cream but I try anyway.

The award winning blog spot ends with this saying, in life you have to find your ice cream. If you can't, either steal or just get someone to help in your search.

PS: I am now craving for Green Tea Ice Cream

Spotlighting on...13JAN2010

2010-01-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

Today I feel awesome. I felt a wave of ecstasy rushing unto my body and thought to myself oh it is a wonderful world. It is like running through an open field with flowers, birds and some girl singing opera.

The reason is......

After a long time blogging, tearing my hair in frustration and toiling long hours constantly to dish out the best piece of work for every post I publish online, the award winning blogspot finally has a follower. FINALLY! I say it is damn about time somebody publicly admit that they are an avid advocate of Mar. As such, I reward my very first follower with a handshake and later on a private session with Mar Suzaku where he will show his very first follower his best and only card trick. Also.he receives the MAR AWARD FOR LOYALTY. Congrats!

Anyway the spotlights today would like to highlight

PATSY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Yes, the runner up, number 2 USS SEX SYMBOL JANUARY celebrated her birthday today and as such, I would like to again wish her happy birthday. At the same time, I would like to again state that she did not in any circumstances appear in my dreams, dry or not dry.Patsy's husband, do not hang a dead pig's head on my door. Use a chicken.

G DRAGON IS BETTER THAN TAEYANG
Vivien is literally obsessed with Taeyang. Being a good friend that I am, I decided to crush her theory that Taeyang is the greatest thing to happen to Korea and point out to her that the ever cool G Dragon is so so so much better and talented than Taeyang. Also, I state that G Dragon has the charisma on 5 men and that Daniel, Nas G and Mar Suzaku is way way hotter than Tae Tarik.

ST IS A FACEBOOK ADDICT
I love ST like a brother. Thus it worries me to see him addicted to virtual reality that is facebook. Since my bestie, AJ http://aj-junior.blogspot.com/ is a hopeless case in facebook addiction, I decided to not let ST follow into his footsteps and vow to someday steal his gadgets and make him tap dance somewhere near the Singapore River.

Today the spotlights ends with this admission, Shanky, you were right and I admit to your prowess in observation. For more info on what Shanky is right about, please pay US1.00 and email it mar_cloud@live.com.sg.

Spotlighting on....USS JANUARY SEX SYMBOLS

2010-01-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

By a flash of brilliance, by a spurt of genius, Mar Suzaku felt compelled to conjure this very important list for his beloved work friends...This list is conjured after spending some time meditating without ice coffee in hand and must really be taken seriously!

NUMBER 3 MALE :BOSCO
The silent but mysterious Bosco. Ladies love his cool demeanor, go gaga for his boy next door looks and gawk at his nice features. While, he looks innocent, this man is not afraid to show his naughty side. However, he is also quite a gentlemen and such a deserving winner in this list.

NUMBER 2 MALE: HE SHENG TAO
Known affectionately as ST, this man has impressive looks. The girls at East Coast cant help but stop and stare at him. Yet, ST is a very down to earth goody two shoes, almost angelic and blushes at the slightest compliments on his sex appeal. The man never fails to smile and greet anyone in the vicinity and as such, a very deserving runner up in the male category.

NUMBER 1 MALE: SHANKER
The funny man with the badass attitude. The combination of brains and brawn. The persona of Gurmit Singh with Marilyn Monroe. Shanker is the man of the moment. Never one to hide his thoughts and yet thoughtful of others. Shanker is a good looking character and as such, the USS SEX SYMBOL MALE JANUARY. Congrats and keep up the sultry attitude. SHANKER= JANUARY SEX SYMBOL MAN

Unfortunately, I cannot be nominated for this category given the fact that I would sweep the USS SEX SYMBOL AWARD monthly. Do not worry ladies, The Mar will still be sexy as ever in your hearts.

NUMBER 3 FEMALE: NICA
Sexy, sweet and lovable. Soft spoken Nica captures the hearts of those around her with her antics. Nica is also thoughtful of everyone and make it a point not to let anyone be alienated. Those plus a hot bod gives her the number 3 position this month.

NUMBER2 FEMALE: PATSY
The epitome of hotness. The symbol of what beauty plus brains. Patsy is cheery, happy and sticks up for the USS people. Age is a number which frankly I do not really care about and as such, The Mar gives her number 2 for January.

NUMBER1 FEMALE: JUSTINE SONGCUYA
The very deserving winner with that pole dance! She is the epitome of wit and weird. The sexy Justine can always be trusted to light up any place. With a very sexy body to boot, Justine is without a shadow of a doubt, USS SEX SYMBOL FEMALE JANUARYJUSTINE SONGCUYA = JANUARY SEX SYMBOL FEMALE

I maintain the claim that none of the ladies mentioned ever appeared in any dreams, dry or not. The spotlights ends with the congrats to the winners and to those who did not win, to either act sexier or just get in my good books.

Spotlighting on...Discoveries

2010-01-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

As stated in the previous edition of the Spotlights, The Mar felt a creative burnout and as such, not be able to give his all in his writing. While I am first and foremost, a joker at heart, I am very serious and passionate about writing, especially when writing this blog. Due to those very reasons, I took a few days off to recharge my batteries.

While I am gone, I took the time to catch up with some old friends, get some closure on certain things of my past, rediscover myself and also plan for the immediate future, to someday have a degree and be a somebody in this world.

The things I discovered about myself are

1. I AM GETTING OLD
2009, the year that states I have lived for a quarter of a century. While my life now has a direction and purpose, I still have feelings of regret that I squandered 25 years of my life. I do hope the advocates of Mar do not ever make the same mistakes as I do. Education is very important and that while having fun is the best thing in life, do not ever forget that hard work too is necessary to balance it all.

2.I AM STILL HAVING ATTENTION PROBLEMS
My teachers in primary school used to really scold me like hell about my endless chatter, my not paying attention to them and not even bothering to do any homework at all. Flash forward to my national service, my superiors would punish me for my lack of attention. A few years later, I still have colleagues screaming at me to stay focused. I admit it ok people, YES I HAVE A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN. The Mar promises to try better this problem.

3. AT 25, FROGS STILL SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME
I love Naruto. I adore Jiraiya. I label myself the frog prince. However if I see those slimy amphibians in real life, I start to panic and either have the tendency to vomit or even break out in cold sweat. While I think this fear is due to an incident when I was young, I could not care less and just resolve to never encounter those monsters.

4. I AM GETTING PREACHY
The Mar loves the company of kids. However, when I am with them, I took the trouble to advice them about life, the importance of education, the wonders of saving and etc. It was when Andi's wife, or was it Andi itself? I can not recall as I was talking and thinking about ice coffee at that time. Anyway, one of them remarked as to how I made a great counselor. I did not feel it then but after spending a few days to soul search, I reacted, Oh my God! I am turning into my mother!

5.TANG YUEN IS NICE
I recently went to Chinatown and saw this desserts stall selling this glutinous rice balls in soup. Due to the picture of the dish being similar as to what I may have eaten in the past, I bought the dish. I chose peanut filling going along with ginger soup. AH BALING STALL, I am now an addict and is now planning a return to the stall, not only with a bigger budget, but also with more time.

Those are the major discoveries I made in my journey to search my soul. I recommend to all who are having a lot of confusion to also take a few days to restore that very precious clarity of mind. A healthy mind keeps you out of jail.

An announcement to the advocates of Mar, the future editions of the Spotlights would be posted randomly, not only because I am an extremely random person but also due to the upcoming commitments in the complicated life of Mar. As such, the award winning blogspot apologizes in advance. If there are any of the readers who are unhappy, please email to mar_cloud@live.com.sg.

I would promise to either ignore the email and remarked to myself how fools misunderstood us geniuses or forwad a link to xiaxue's blogspot. The spotlights bid adieu for now.

Spotlighting on...Random thoughts of the moment

2010-01-06T04:01:00.000-08:00

I decided to experiment today with this post. AS of this moment, I will jot down whatever the heck I am thinking and not edit it. Thus here we go:

POTATO CHIPS
BEER
WOMEN
BEER
HAMBURGERS
BEER
POLO BOYS

MAR WAKE UP ROUTINE

12pm = Wake Up
The Mar wakes up with full screen saver mode and starts fiddling around for his spectacles, his hand phone and anything he can squeeze

12.10pm =Sleep again
After fiddling around, I lay down on my soft bed and again try to sleep since no one is bothering him

12.20pm = Wake up again
Failing to fall asleep, I finally get my butt off the bed and heads slowly to the bathroom.

12.30pm = Shower
I then shower to start recharging my brain, my body and boost my sexy levels. There can never be too much soaping and shampoo is good. It helps to also have a song to sing and dance in the bathroom.

After all that is settled, I then sit on my chair and plan what the hell to do with my day. This process of thinking involves loads of caffeine, a cigarette and some good music.

In this episode of the spotlights, we also take the time to highlight key incidents in the world

THE SENTOSA MOLESTATION
The Girl should have worn the bra Madonna wore

THE TIGER WOODS SCANDAL
Is that the best the tiger can do?

THE SINGAPORE IRAN MATCH
Why are we not called the merlions?

AYUMI HAMASAKI AND JIN AKANISHI SHARING A RUMORED RELATIONSHIP
This is not true. Ayumi is secretly dating a certain Singaporean blogger!

Seriously, the Mar feels a creative burnout and as such not be able to give his all in his writing! While the readers need not worry about my health, it would help if the people give him a bag of chipsto save his mind.Thus we end this very random edition of the award winning, ayumi dating and most simply the coolest blog spot.

Spotlighting on.... 5Jan

2010-01-04T22:26:00.000-08:00

The Mar has another memory block. In desperation to stop this annoying problem once and for all, I sat in a quiet corner of my house to meditate in order to free my mind. At first, the sounds of Lady Gaga flaring from my speakers distracted me but I focus, for the sake of my followers.

I sat and meditate when all of a sudden, a beautiful lady appears in front of eyes and said.....

MAR, you want a candy?

Who are you?

I am your mother la....

Why do I have all these memory blocks?

Why should I know? You want your candy or not?

After eating the candy, I finally realize why I am having all these memory blocks. My posts, all my posts rely on my power of emotions. Be it happiness, sadness, rage,avarice,jealousy,love or other feelings, every post that I write must originate from my heart.

I was stunned by the revelations. It was more shocking then Bret The Hitman Hart returning to the WWE, more shocking than Sezairi winning the Singapore Idol, more shocking than watching diet coke and mentos. What ramifications does that spells out for me? Must I be truly emotional every single time I blog?

Then I watched a video of myself dancing and forgot the whole issue. Anyway, the spotlights today will like to make some formal statements.

STATEMENT1: PLEASE STOP WHINING ABOUT WHO WON SINGAPORE IDOL
This is the results from the votes. If you aren't please with the results, you should just kicked yourself for not voting enough during the season.

STATEMENT2: I STILL BELIEVE THAT IN 2012, GIANT SQUIRRELS WILL TAKE OVER THE PLANET
Be prepared people. I already have my anti squirrel stuff in my room.

STATEMENT3: TREES ARE THE SOURCE OF OUR PROBLEMS
I still maintain, they are all the source of problems in the world. The best way to stop all the problems is to cut less trees. Thus we save the environment and the trees will cease to bug us.

STATEMENT4: I AM SCARED OF FROGS
The less said the better.

Before I end this episode of the Mar Award winning blogspot, I first apologize if there may be a slight drop in the quality of today's post. As such, I would compensate those who are dissatisfied with my materials with a private session with me, where The Mar will entertain you with singing, lame jokes and bad dancing. Alternatively, send a S$2 to my home along with the complaint letters and I will look unto the matter.

Dedicated to the people who are there for me, all of you, especially you are precious, like diamonds or gold or crystals.

PS, the video of The Mar is not available for those under the age of 18, rejects and those who still watch teletubbies secretly. Highly addictive and rated S for sexy. Shipping costs apply.

Spotlighting on...Wishes 2010

2010-01-03T21:38:00.000-08:00

2009 finally ended and thus we usher in 2010

As I stated before, I have made 4 resolutions for these year and I am totally hell-bent on keeping them. That seems strange for me but I never felt so driven before in my life. I am thankful for my clarity of mind and now will strive to attain my goals for 2010 and life.

Also, I also has drawn up a wish list for 2010.

WISH 1: HAVE A PLAYSTATION 3
I want my PS3 pronto. I so am looking forward to playing Tekken 6 and Monster Hunter 3 and thus I really wish I could have my own PS3 this year. It seems more horrible given that one of my besties, Andi has a PS 3. Sometimes, I plan to drug him with a diet coke, take his house keys and steal his PS3 but the idea seems so hard to execute. As such, I hope to somehow earn my own PS3.

WISH 2: HAVE LONG HAIR
I usually went to the barber to trim my hair the moment I felt uncomfortable. However, as a long time admirer of Cloud Strife Final Fantasy 7, I hoped that maybe I could have a hairdo as cool or similar to him. I would love to have that huge sword of his but I do not want the police to breathe down my neck so I think I just stick to the hair.

WISH 3: TAKE BETTER CARE OF MY WATCHES
The problem with me when it comes to watches is that I am too hyper. I moved, jumped and dance anywhere I want to and as such my hands continuously to bump into things which in turn damage my watches. While I absolutely have no intention to start being less hyper, I wish that whenever I move my hands, I do not damage my watch.

WISH 4: HAVE A FAN BASE
The Founder of Mar is really praying some demented fan of his will set up a shrine or just an internet group advocating just how great I am. While that really is a long shot given the fact that people rather just ask me to shut up then call me awesome, it doesn't hurt to dream. Who knows... That is a bloody hint people!

WISH 5: BE LESS ANNOYING
Who am I kidding? Scrap this wish!

These are the wishes I have drawn up so far. A wish is not necessarily granted but nevertheless, it is always good to dream. I believe that in dreaming, we become slightly positive in life and even become a bit more human in that sense.

Thus the first official episode of the Award winning blog spot, The Spotlights. I ends with this last wish

WISH 6: PEOPLE TO START UNDERSTANDING EACH OTHER BETTER AND ACCEPT EVERYONE AS WHO THEY ARE
I hate wars and conflicts. I hate all the terrorist crap and stuff and as such I sincerely hope that the day would come even if I am not around on this planet, every one in this world would not have to worry about everyone else.

Spotlighting on.....The Mar Awards

2010-01-02T03:45:00.000-08:00

This are the results of the most anticipated Awards show in blogspot hstory. Better than that whoever XiaXue is, bigger than any dinosaur you can think off, here are your winners:

Most Cutest Friend 2009
Nica
Nora
Eva
WINNER: NICA
Nora and Eva is equally cute but I guess her extreme gentle and ladylike manners gave her the slight edge

Most Sexiest Person 2009
Ayumi Hamasaki
Megan Fox
Ris Low
WINNER: Ayumi Hamasaki
She won based on the number of unspeakable dreams I had about her

Most Sexiest Person 2009-personal
Mar Suzaku
AJ Creepy Eyes
Eva
WINNER:AJ Creepy Eyes
WHAT? WHY? Those eyes do not make him more sexy than Mar Suzaku. Fine, Aj, enjoy your Mar!

Most Creepiest Friend 2009
AJ Creepy Eyes
Nas G
Nora
WINNER: NAS G
A huge upset here but Nas G wins because of the best and possibly creepiest way of laughing. I love you bro!

Best Jabroni 2009
Rio
The guy who has the most irritating bike horn underneath my HDB flat
Eva
WINNER: The guy who has the most irritating bike horn underneath my HDB flat This jabroni happens to irritate me all the time at night with his godfather themed bike horn. Here is a Mar, now please change the bike horn.

Most Significant Event in 2009
Tiger Woods Infidelity
Michael Jackson's passing away
Climate Talks
WINNER:Michael Jackson's passing away
I still am saddened at the death of possibly the greatest pop artist to have ever walked this Earth. He united the world with his music and dance moves and even in death.
RIP Michael, we miss you

Most Significant Event in 2009 -personal
Retrenchment
Attaining my Diploma after 9 year hiatus from school
Breaking off of my engagement
WINNER:Attaining my Diploma after 9 year hiatus from school
I proved my critics wrong, the ones who said it was a waste of time and I am no longer as smart as I once was. I got my diploma and even though it was hellacious, it was damn worth every tear.

Most Outspoken Character 2009
Shanker
Crystal
Mazlan
WINNER: Mar Suzaku
I WASN'T EVEN NOMINATED! Ah well, I gladly accept this Mar.

Most Surprising Character 2009
Pa Kiau
Eva
Debbie Lee
WINNER: EVA
No one can beat the reigning surprising Queen of Deodorant with her unanticipated antics. Believe me, spend the whole day with her and you will find out why she thoroughly deserve this Mar

Best Blog-spot 2009 Suzaku Spotlights.blogspot.com
WINNER: Suzaku Spotlights.blogspot.com
Without a shadow of a doubt, the spotlights deserve this award for not only being the most innovative blogspot but also for its potential to become the single greatest entertaining piece in cyber history. Well done!

To those who did not win a Mar, I urge you to not give up and try harder in 2010. Thus I end this edition of the award winning blogspot with the saying

It never rains everyday

Spotlighting on...The Mar Awards Nominees

2009-12-29T18:56:00.000-08:00

The Mar Awards is handed out to people or events that really make an impact in the life of Mar Suzaku. It is the highest accolade in blog spot history and as such the nominees has been really scrutinized and gone through a highest selection criteria. This is the first and hopefully will not be the last Mar Awards.

Most Cutest Friend 2009
Nica
Nora
Eva

This is to determine who is the cutest of the cute friends I have in my life. Sure, I have been told countless times they are ugly but adorable so this award will go to the one I find adorable in 2009.

Most Sexiest Person 2009
Ayumi Hamasaki
Megan Fox
Ris Low

Most Sexiest Person 2009-personal
Mar Suzaku
AJ Creepy Eyes
Eva

This award will be handed out to the one I find a complete turn on.

Most Creepiest Friend 2009
AJ Creepy Eyes
Nas G
Nora

This one is a no-brainer. The award will be handed out to the one who I find freaky.

Best Jabroni 2009
Rio
The guy who has the most irritating bike horn underneath my HDB flat
Eva

The less said the better. The one Mar you pray not to win

Most Significant Event in 2009
Tiger Woods Infidelity
Michael Jackson's passing away
Climate Talks

Most Significant Event in 2009 -personal
Retrenchment
Attaining my Diploma after 9 year hiatus from school
Breaking off of my engagement

Many things have occurred in my life. I guess it is only natural I award the most important event in my life with a Mar.

Most Outspoken Character 2009
Shanker
Crystal
Mazlan

This is handed to the one I find the most fluent.

Most Surprising Character 2009
Pa Kiau
Eva
Debbie Lee

Never judge a book by the cover. These characters have really surprise me time and time again and as such, I will find it hard to choose just who deserves the award for shocking me the most.

Best Blog-spot 2009
Suzaku Spotlights.blogspot.com

This without a shadow of a doubt is the highest recognition to a blogspot. It is rewarded to the best of the best, the cream of the crop and not be taken lightly/

In life there are winners and there are losers. The winners will be decided and declared in the next rendition of the Spotlights and the losers will get to cry in front of the computer screen thinking, I should have done better to get a Mar. Spotlights for now

Spotlighting on.....The Road Not Taken

2009-12-28T05:30:00.000-08:00

The Road Not Taken" is a poem by Robert Frost , published in 1915 in the collection Mountain Interval. The poem is as follows

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

This poetry really inspires me. It reflects the choices, the difficult ones that I took to be where I am today and yes it has made a hell lot of difference. Sure, I endured criticisms and heartbreak along the way but I feel at this point in my life, it is worth it.

I sincerely feels that this piece of art deserves to be spotlighted today to not only highlight the need for appreciation of literature but to also serves as a reminder, a beacon of hope to those who like me be forced to choose upon sticking to the conventional choice or take a risk to chase for that elusive dream. While the first few steps down the road is the hardest, at the end journey, it is usually worth it. Also it is by far more exciting and thrilling since you do not know what to expect.

The spotlights ends with that.

A side note, there will be Mar Awards coming up soon on the spotlights. Look out for that people. Who knows you may be nominated and received a Mar, the highest accolade in blog spot history.

Spotlighting on...My Getaway

2009-12-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

As mentioned in the previous post, Mar Suzaku went away for a while to take a much needed sabbatical. Along with Andhika's extended family, his wife and AJ Creepy, we went to our usual home away from home, the lesser known St John's Island.

This trip however poses some very strange truths.

TRUTH 1: FACEBOOK ADDICTION
AJ Creepy http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/ and yours truly suffered some severe facebook withdrawal symptoms while at the other island of Singapore.

AJ why are you so stoned? Are you OK?

I miss facebook!

Yeah me too

The boths of us then looked really sad and stay silently stoned until we were called by someone to explore the island. Sadly, this is reality, technology has become so powerful that it may actually be more addictive than nicotine itself

TRUTH2: ANIMAL DOCUMENTARIES ARE BETTER ON TV THAN REAL LIFE
The entire gang was at an abandoned place to see the real islanders, the huge collection of stray cats. It was then we saw a cat being forcefully humped by a stronger male before other horny males tried to join the fray. It is rather disturbing, watching a cat raping a cat and other cats trying to get some loving. While the others say its nature, I say its disgustingly freaky. As such, I do not think I like to subscribe to the National Geographic anytime soon.

TRUTH 3: ICE COFFEE DEPENDENCY
People around me has noticed that I now drink even more ice coffee than before. I do not know the reason, maybe disappointments in love or failures in life but my dependency on caffeine has come to the point that I cannot think coherently without at least consuming a cup of nice refreshing cup of ice coffee. The first thing I got back in Singapore is, duh', 2 glasses of ice coffee followed by a packet of ice coffee when I get back to my home.

TRUTH 4: HOPE AND ADVICE COMES FROM UNEXPECTED SOURCES
Andhika has a brother Rio http://riohaikaludin-4thblog.blogspot.com/. He is very hyper and at first glance seems very immature in comparison to his siblings. The previous night, we were chatting and catching up on times, just me Rio and Izad, Andhi's cousin and we were sharing our musical tastes as well as the women in our life. Rio is really into hip hop and when I told him of my recent breaking of engagement he did not say much. The following night while all of us were walking underneath the starlit skies, Rio suddenly quipped

Jay Z got married to Beyounce at age 39

Why tell me that fact all of a sudden?

If he can get a hot babe at that age why not you? You are cool what

While I then ribbed him of his musical tastes, seriously Hip Hop?, I silently took note of that fact. He may not know it then but that by far really cheers me up. In a bizarre way, he thought me that good things comes to those who wait and as such I should just chill. Of course, I do not think that I ever will let myself be drunk with love but then again, the thought is nice.

My escapade to St John's Island has indeed been eventful and my only regret is that Nas G is not there since he is unable to take time off from his work. When I got back home in front of my home computer screen, the last of the truths dawns on me.

TRUTH 5: IT IS NOT THE PLACE, IT IS THE PEOPLE
I have awesome friends, and making more each day. It seems that while I am not ever loaded with cash, I am blessed with a growing number of really supportive and fun loving friends and as such I am rich in that sense.

Pictures of the trip will hopefully be up in Facebook soon. That does it for this rendition of the spotlights and ends with this friendly reminder,
SAVE THE ENVIRONMENT.

Spotlighting on.... Attention Span

2009-12-23T22:35:00.001-08:00

Recently, I am really having a hard time trying to concentrate on a single thought. These days, I tend to think like 2 to 3 things at one go.

Highlighting a few incidents that I think is a cause of concern for my increasingly short attention span and focus....

INCIDENT 1:
Mar Suzaku is furiously tying a rope for the Billy Bucket game in order to break the 45 min record.Suddenly I saw a girl who I find so hot and sexy. I looked at the girl with my hot eyes.

FOCUS
FOCUS

Those shouts I never will forget. Reminds me of my former Army Sergeant screaming at me while I was doing my drill. I think I was suppose to march but I decided to show him my matrix like maneuvers. In my defense, the girl I was checking out while carrying out my responsibilities is worth it, she is that smoking hot. PS: ITS NOT YOU EVA

INCIDENT 2:
Mar Suzaku and Nora was talking about our style in doing things. Mar Suzaku was about to stress a very important fact in his life when he suddenly thought

Why doesn't' Mc Donald's sell Quarter-pounders anymore?

I turned back to Nora and ask her a question that I now had forgotten but which I think involves her birthday and why is she born on that day. I also ask her if she would buy goreng pisang and ice cream if I sold to her for an exorbitant amount for example $7.50. I then began to daydream about me in the beach with that hot babe I saw down the street. Or was it the one I saw in class?

People gimme some solutions to solve my increasingly erratic behavior. On a side note, the master of disaster is going away for a while to recharge his batteries, destress from all that bitch crap and rediscover why he is the reason for Humanity to have hope and also recover his long lost faith in himself. With that love, peace and safe sex from the spotlights. That last bit I learn from my new friend Pa Kiau.

Spotlighting on.... Resolution 4

2009-12-21T02:55:00.000-08:00

My heart officially died yesterday. The ugly truth has at last surfaced and 2009 seems even horrible then before. While the feeling of bitterness and pain overwhelms my soul, I refuse to cry and submit but made the choice to still retain that mask of mine, the smiling joker.

I would never elaborate on what happened as I do not believe in retribution to the ones that hurt me. Revenge to me is childish and petty and as such even if the world treats me like hell, like it is now, I would not allow myself to sink that low.

Logically,after the revelations, I think resolution 4 would be the one resolution that I honestly would not be able to keep. A refresher,

RESOLUTION 4: REGAIN MY BELIEVE IN LOVE

After the crap, I am not sure I ever will. Sure I heard of stories, even worse than mine. However, my heart is not as forgiving. Love is not something I fall easily, crush maybe but true love, a big no. It is hard for me to really show the man behind the smiling mask and thus to reveal him and be hurt is painful.

Today, suddenly out of the blue, on my way home, I felt a chill. It is like I can really feel my heart, go stone cold, like its dead due to multiple stabs throughout my 25 years of existence. I felt neither hurt nor angry but strangely calm.

Maybe somewhere in the future, a nice girl may change, warm my now cold insides. But I do not count on it. My hopes and love are now for my friends, the old new and the close but to commit to someone again, to lose my soul again, the romance I shall not.

I never once gave up on hope. It is just that I am facing the cold hard facts. I no longer feel sad, just a wave of eerie calm. As such, I shall continue myself as the smiling joker, the ones who laugh.

The tears of a clown is the saddest. As such, I will show love only to my job and friends but also embrace and accept the frost metamorphosis of my heart. With this brutally honest autopsy, I end this very personal edition of the spotlights.

Spotlighting on.....Resolutions 2010

2009-12-20T03:24:00.000-08:00

It seems too early to make up resolutions for the new year but I have indeed compiled a list of things that I want to accomplish in year 2010.

RESOLUTION 1: BULK UP

It is obvious that physically I am in a very bad shape. That fact was severely highlighted a few hours ago when I first stepped into the gym after years of decadence. I struggled lifting even the least of weights and the fact that my little brother was there to taunt me about it doesnt help at all. Also, I believe I am too thin. I have had about enough of my skinny frame and I guess a change is imminent.

RESOLUTION 2: SAVE MONEY

I am like the embodiment of impulse shopping. If I happened to see something that I like, I buy in like 20 seconds. I then cry about spending so much money before I see something nicer and I buy it. This people has really got to stop so I decided to enlist the fussiest man on earth to curb my expenditure. AJ, who else. I will learn from him ways of how to stop spending and maybe make my hair as curry puffy as him.

RESOLUTION 3: LESS RAGE

2009 has not been kind to me. Retrenched from my previous job, insulted by a job agency about my lack of education credentials and the breaking of my engagement, the year does seemed to suck. As such, I tend to get easily agitated and only with the help of my close friends do I still retain my so called sanity. I maintained my belief that all humans are insane. Anyway, I guess all the rage inside me is unhealthy for my mental health and thus I resolved to get less angry this year.

RESOLUTION 4: REGAIN MY BELIEVE IN LOVE

Yeah yeah, after the heartbreaks I have indeed lost all believe in the nature of true love. I do not believe in ever afters. While I certainly do not see the logic that a girl will ever fall head over heels for a guy like me, nor I see myself drunk in love and lust again over a sweet lass, I just put this on the resolution list so that I can fill up more space on this post.

While I realise that making resolutions now seemed early and that most of the time, people tend not to follow up on their list, I have a strong reason as to why I will. While 2009 suck badly, 2009 is also the year I rediscovered myself. I found my passion, writing, my self esteem, that I can still study after 8 years of rotting job after job and my soul. I rediscovered my goals in life and such I rediscovered hope. I will make my life better or die trying.

In losing all I have, I found myself again. With that hope in my heart and chicken rice in my stomach, I end this session of the spotlight.

Spotlighting on........ Writer's Block

2009-12-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

Oh my god! Seriously I am having a writer's block. Me... the ultra talkative who almost have no problems in saying whatever I am thinking, however irrelevant it is to the topic that is being discussed.

Here I am, staring blankly at the screen. So many things to blog about, so many emotions to talk about, the events like Tiger Woods and stuff and I have no idea what it is I really want to talk about.

Downing ice coffee usually helps me think but this time, I am really really stuck. It is like that creativity in me refuses to pounce out today. Strolling pictures of hot babes in my facebook account does not help.

Desperate, I turn to the newspapers to think of a topic. Wow so many articles but damn, the master of the spotlights is not in the game today. So what should he do?

Option A
Call Eva and tell her my theory of why the dinosaurs really go extinct

Option B
Call Nora and explain to her why people thinks I am hot

Option C
Call AJ and Nas G and show them my new slick dance moves

Option D
Disturb a really really shy person

Option E
Give up and go back to gaming

After much deliberation and more strolling of pictures of facebook babes, I decided to just listen to some Ayumi and not think so much about it. After all, my wrting has not been perfect in the first place and my best work are the ones I do not really think but those I expressed through my heart via my hands.

The spotlights today ends with a plea... those who thinks that Mar_Suzaku is hot, email to this address mar_cloud@live.com.sg. Explain to him why he is hot and the winner gets Mar to come down and show you his new slick dance moves.

Spotlighting on....Choices

2009-12-16T03:34:00.000-08:00

Smoking kills. It causes cancer, diseases and other horrible stuff. It drains your finances and pollutes the environment.

I had known all the facts for ten years. I know a cigarette steals 5 and a half minutes of my life every time I inhale it and yet I still smoke. Why? It is because I have an addiction. No, I choose this addiction.

I chose to slowly destroy my body because smoking actually heals my sanity. Yeah, It calms my nerves next to coffee and it actually makes me hyper. I chose this path because I want the feelings of enjoyment, to have my chest really have a deep breath of pleasure even if it causes me somewhere down the road.
I know and yet I choose to do it...WHY? It helps me think

My workplace is planning to send the smokers to a smoking clinic. I believe this gesture shows how much they actually care for the smokers. To be honest, Singapore is really an anti smoking country and that the anti smoking message is spread through the natural Singaporean way, Bans, fines, repeat. It seems that they rather honestly tells us it is easier to just quit then to perilously suffer in chasing those precious minutes to light up a cigarette bud. The fact that they bothered to send us to therapy is really touching.

While I do appreciate the motion, I also oppose it. I believe the smokers should make their own choice, of their own free will as to whether attend the smoking clinic. I strongly believe in freedom and this act of goodwill is going to really split the camp. Yeah, it may be a bad choice but it is our choice. I believe that indeed we should stop smoking but only if we are ready, not by being pressured by some external factor.

The spotlights today ends with that famous saying, THE ROAD TO HELL IS PAVED WITH GOOD INTENTIONS.

Side note: Mar Suzaku apologizes for the apparent drop in the quality of his blogspot due to the feelings of work euphoria. If you are not happy with the blogspot, please email mar_cloud@live.com.sg along with some cash and pour your heart out.

Spotlighting on....My Current Status

2009-12-15T03:36:00.000-08:00

It feels good to finally start work after such a long sabbatical.

I do not really how to really express my feelings in words. I think its a mixture of euphoria, jubilation, exhaustion and a tinge of happiness. I even have an appetite which honestly surprises me since I do not really eat much when I am working. Nora says it is due to my enjoying my work, I think looking at all the babes at my workplace is the true reason.

I will not divulge online where I am working at this moment. I can say however that part of my work is dealing with cameras. Yeah, the SLR cameras. If you recall, I stated that learning the functions of the camera often brings me to dream of that Thai flick Shutter at night. However, today, adrenaline and the need to succeed actually helps me, ME, understand some basic functions of the camera. I got to take a decent picture with a Nikon D300.

While I still am reeling over my devastating break up with my ex fiance, my missing of her nephew which I really love and my currently worsening financial status, I certainly also feel that maybe things will get better for me. I do not want fall in love again so I guess I would not have another heartbreak and I certainly am one step closer towards my goal, a Bachelor in Business and Tourism.

Today, the spotlights is ends with this wish, I wish that the entire world, including me achieves thier dreams, whatever they are.

Spotlighting on....

2009-12-12T07:47:00.000-08:00

Currently, at this very instance, I am siting with my best friends, AJ http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/, Nas G, Fahmi and his beau Fiza at Changi Village. Chilling with our favourite drinks and just catching up, I cannot help but rewind what I just experienced. A flea market, my first flea market.

The Flea Market at Changi Village is held on every Saturday. There, the things sold varies from the usual, clothing and electrical accesories, to the antiques and to the rare, old OLD telephones. The prices are negotiable and the people manning the stores are quite a lively and friendly bunch.

Throughout the whole ordeal, AJ and Fahmi, furiously snapping photos of anything, Fiza just swaying around and buying stuff whilst yours truly and Nas G, living up to our reputations, just oogling at the babes. I stressed the point that I was just watching, while Nas was uhm.... I cant say.

Anyway, the flea market is without a shadow of a doubt, a charming and sadly, a dying trend in Singapore. Where once a tradition for the people to patronize these stalls all over, the culture is slowly being relegated to certain isolated places. The people today,prefer to go to malls and thus the days of the market is numbered.

I highlighted once the need to save the soul of Singapore. Again this dying trend is an example of how urbanization is killing all that was loved of my country. The young today already do not have the experience of siting by roadside stalls, wolfing down hawker's delights nor had they learn the joy of playing by canals. Gasing, nowadays is subsituted by that Japan thingie Byakugan whatever.

The objective of topday's spotlights is to stress that these trends that we considered outdated is important. It is important that while we embrace change, we do not forget where we once were. With that, I end the spotlights.

On a sidenote, Mar Suzaku would like to thank his friend AJ for lending his laptop and his friend Fahmi for the internet connection. He would also thank Nas G for pointing out the hot babes. Trust that cheeky guy.

Spotlighting on...Problem-solving

2009-12-10T06:55:00.000-08:00

I am not a photographer. I do not know what the heck is shutter speed and if anyone tries teaching me what that is, I will start daydreaming about that Thai horror flick Shutter and later have nightmares at night. Neither am I a painter. Give me a paint brush and the only portrait I can muster is a picture of some mashed up paint. I then tell people its abstract art and they tried to correct me by telling me its a badly drawn cat. The fools, it was a lion, how I laugh menacingly inside as the joke is on them.

My only creative outlet I can be truly proud of is my writing. Yes indeed, this blog has without a doubt become my pride and joy. Pardon a few grammatical error and I think I made a decent blogger. Heck, to prove it I have the uncanny ability to come up with pet names for any women who tried to date me. Though now I can not seem to find a women to date, Im sure it has nothing to do with me calling them Fishy Babe or Lady Lust, etc.

So indeed, when it comes to dealing with issues, I tend to write them down before I analyze and come up with solutions on the problems at hand. An alternative way would be to just blame the person nearby.

A friend of mine recently is having huge problems, the nature of which I shall keep ultra confidential. It has nothing to do with aliens or 2012 but more deadly than that. It got me thinking about the best way of dealing with serious issues. How do we cope with the immense stress and the powerlessness that sometimes life throws at us.

My way as stated early is writing. My best friend AJ http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/
unwind by photo taking. My brother beats stress with PC games and my other best friend Nas G relaxes by staring and maybe harassing the ladies nearby. After all the activities, they then tend to the matter at hand, reenergized and fresh with more ideas.
Relaxing at the beach is a great way to free the mind

Today, the spotlights shall share with its loyal readers tips on how to problem solve and beat stress......

1. Write down the problem
2. Stare and cry at the problem
3. Set a column and label it potential solutions
4. For every potential solutions, list down the pros and cons
5. Select the option with the most number of pros and the least number of cons.

For dilemmas however, the spotlights have a different way ....

1. Write down the dilemma
2. Stare and cry at the dilemma
3. Write down both parties pros and cons
4. Write down the collateral damage of each choice
5. Select the least collateral, or the best deal possible or just forgo the whole deal

For more info on how to solve your problems, email the master of the spotlights
mar_cloud@live.com.sg and I will gladly help each and everyone of you select the best choice. This is my early Christmas present, a friend for all those who needs a friend.

Spotlighting on....Lost inspiration

2009-12-09T04:01:00.000-08:00

Blogging can be tough at times. I could have millions of ideas walking down the road and suddenly go blank when I try to put them down later at home. I could have an epiphany and then suddenly lost track of it the moment I tried to write about it.

Take today for instance. Nora and I went for a medical check up at Raffles Hospital at Bugis. We were strolling around after the check up and I saw Iluma mall. Then in that moment in the afternoon I felt inspired. I felt wow, I have a great idea, an interesting thing to write about.
Isnt the Iluma mall beautiful?

At that moment, I thought, damn I sure as hell will write about this. About the brilliant thought I have in mind. I was laughing alone like a genius and those fools around me at me would never comprehend the brilliance of I Mar Suzaku. Damn them.

Flash forward a few hours later, at home, with coffee in one hand and the keyboard at my fingertips, I became stuck. All the ideas just disintegrate, gone. Hell, I even forgot what was it that I wanted to write about Iluma mall.Now I feel those fools are laughing at me. Damn them tenfold, ugh. Was it the sight of Singapore evolving into one heck of a beautiful but soulless city or was it that I was to blog about the people there, the ones who seemed without a care in the world, just lazing around wasting their time with needless hanging out and unproductive banter. Nope, I just can not remember!

I do not know about the statistics so I just ponder, how many of us have a great idea in an instant and suddenly in the next instant, just can't put a finger on it. It is kinda like tap dancing, seems like a great thing for me to learn but just cannot remember if it was heel toe heel toe or toe hands heel toe. Or was it similar to tango moves?

Whatever I wanted to write about, I sure as hell hope I can remember it someday. However, this valuable incident has indeed taught me a few things. Yes, one I need memory boosters. I am going to the sinseh and ask for that thing that boosts the mind. If the sinseh doesn't know what I wanted, I will find a psychic, ask him to read my mind and then tell the sinseh. The second thing, which I think is an easier option is that to mobile blog about stuff. It be easier to blog as I can write on the spot. Imagine the possibilities, the potential the horror and the wonderful.

Therefore today, the spotlight is urging a plea to its readers. Sponsor the man with a phone or a laptop! If you are not going to, I will come down there and show you the river dance extravaganza till you change your mind. If you still do not change your mind, I will cry in a far corner and blame AJ. http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/

Why AJ? It is because I already blame Nora for my memory problem. Thus with that, I end the spotlights.

Spotlighting on....My Graduation

2009-12-04T22:53:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 2nd December 2009

The day of my graduation ceremony. I dressed smartly and despite not being a looker, I got to admit, I look sharp.THE MC IS HOT

The reality finally sunk in today though, that my hard work, investments and sacrifices actually paid off. I finally attained the first step toward my goals. I actually did it! It feels like I struck the lottery or toto or whatever and that euphoria is extremely overwhelming.

In my quiet corner, I felt a a wave of emotions just take over me. I felt that this is indeed my second chance of undoing my past decisions and bad choices. The rage just left me for once and I felt just happy.NICE POSE EVERYBODY

To all my detractors and I know there are quite a number, I was right. To all those who helped and supported me through the dark period and in my self doubt, thank you very much. I will do my best and try not repeat my mistakes.

So what is next for the master of spotlights? Well, off to my new job and take a step closer towards that ultimate goal of mine. I will hell let my sacrifices and hard work go in vain. I urge those who have detractors in chasing their dreams and not give up.

Spotlighting on... My dreams last night

2009-11-28T03:25:00.000-08:00

I had a great dream last night. It was a lot graphic but to put it in family friendly terms

The Queen of My Heart, Ayumi Hamasaki +

The Princesses Of Love, The Brown Eyed Girls +

My Latest Squeeze, Natalya

Oh it was indeed a great dream.

May I serve you Suzaku?

No he's ours! You have been with him for so long Ayu

Shut up you girl band!

All of you shut up or I lay the sharpshooter on you.... Suzaku is mine

Ladies ladies, Im here for all of you

It was a great dream, oh yes! However, why on earth would I blog about a dream? Sure it was one color but why would I spotlight it?

It is simple, hope. I have anger issues but if a simple bit of fantasy can keep me happy for a while then I was right. As long as I have faith I have hope and maybe, just maybe my dreams of a happy successful life may not just remain a dream. If indulging a little bit of fantasy is the key to saving my soul then call me a dreamer.

Suzaku will now try his best to fall asleep right this very instant and invoke the same ladies to uhm ENTERTAIN him in his dreams. ZZZZ spotlights

Spotlighting on..... The Twilight Series

2009-11-26T04:21:00.000-08:00

The Twilight Series has taken the world by storm. First the books and now movies.

Personally I can not stand it. A love story between a vegetarian vampire and a girl. Add a werewolf to complicate the love and some evil vampires to take over the world. Man, how cheesy can you get.

What really disturbs me is that girls all over swoon over the vampire and werewolf. Singaporean men are already losing the women to foreigners and now we are losing to our women to evil forces of the night! That really spells pathetic and doom to us Singaporean men. How do we live up to vampires?

It is even worse to see man interested in the Twilight series. Damn, what the heck. If you want a love story, read an actual love novel. Too girly? It is just the same as reading Twilight without the vampires.

Man, I just do not know why all the buzz. What's next?

Spotlighting on.....My smiling skills

2009-11-24T09:14:00.001-08:00

I have so been told all throughout my life by the many people that had came and gone in my life, I totally sucked when posing for photographs.

I totally find it difficult to smile naturally for a camera. Saying cheese just makes me ponder about breakfast and thus I totally lose concentration and ended up with a look that is either strange or just plain disturbing.

The reason why my inability to grin is spotlighted is because these past few days, my photos had been taken by a lot of people and I did a lot of smiling but I could not find a single photo of me smiling that I find enticing or natural. Heck, I could not even find an acceptable photo.

I decided to compensate by telling myself, it is just a photo. Why the big fuss? Then I started thinking, photos lead to people watching the photos, people are insane, insanity is ruling the world! The world is governed by insanity and my photos are an indirect cause to this!

It was then decided that I cut out the lips of an Angelina Jolie poster and paste it on mine if a photo taking is necessary. I could not find a single poster so I settle for photoshop. It struck me I do not really know how to handle photoshop and thus in the end, I had to use my last resort.

I would maybe get someone else to pose for me. Yep, Fahmi, you look like Suzaku version 2.0, you fit the bill, you pose for me. Either that or insane people rule the world. Suzaku spotlights for now!

Spotlighting on....buildings

2009-11-23T08:26:00.000-08:00

Today was a typically non exciting day. Just the way I like, tranquil and peaceful. As extrovert and hyper random I may be, the truth is I truly enjoy a day with me just alone in my world doing things at my pace.

That will definitely seem hypocritical to the people who knows me.
I do enjoy the company of my best friends,

AJ http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/,
Rio http://riohaikaludin-4thblog.blogspot.com/

and many others. Just that these days, I am a hell lot more reclusive. The tranquility gives me time to reflect.

I just can not get the sight of what I saw on Saturday.
The City

The Other Side

To anyone these may be absolutely nothing. However to me, I made an interesting observation. Singapore prides itself as a bustling and young city, not a country since that is what is interpreted by our law minister Minister K Shanmugam.

http://www.asiaone.com/News/Education/Story/A1Story20091119-181051.html

The old buildings shunned away in the corners of little known places like Guillemart Road while those that portrays an image of hip and cool built prominently at the Singapore Central. What is so interesting about a city when people overseas could just go to their own cities and see their own skyscrapers?

I just find it ironic that Singaporeans defined themselves as a culturally rich nation and yet resort to almost mimicing the concept of others. Take tv shows, Singapore Idol, Don't Forget the Lyrics, Deal or No Deal, are those not copycats? The buildings, are we not copying Sydney or other cities that you can think of?

My point is that in the development of Singapore, we should not push aside the culture that we are. The areas that is so projected by Singapore while is exciting, just seems hollow. The beautiful buildings just doesnt seem to display what we Singaporeans are and that we have to depend solely on the Merlion as a uniquely Singaporean. Hmm, a half lion, half fish.

I love Singapore. I just want Singapore to remember, that a small few of us loves the exciting times now, the growing and booming of the nation and yet not want its cultures slowly relegated to small sections like Little India, Geylang Serai and Chinatown. I do hope that in someway, we show the world who we are, the old buildings with the new and not just change everything.

The spotlights may be a little preachy and overreacting but hey, it is just an observation.

Spotlighting on.... my first karaoke

2009-11-21T20:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Saturday 21 November, I went out with motley bunch, Fahmi Mr Slick, Fiza Miss Cool, Aidil Mr Singer, AJ Creepy Eyes and Nas Mr G.We met up at One Fullerton and chill out at Starbucks to catch up since we have not been together in a long time.
A picture of the Fahmi and Fiza

As usual, the photographers, Aj and Fahmi started discussing on cameras and the perfect shots, the singers Nas and Aidil joked around whilst Fiza mingles with the lively bunch, ready to laugh at those jokes or strike a neat pose whenever she is requested upon. I as usual, just go around strangers and either show them my tap dance or sing Insomnia albeit unrequsted.My impression of a tap dance

It was around 9pm if memory serves me corrrectly that someone suggested we go on a Karaoke session. After much discussion, the decision was made that the group head over to Grandlink Centre at Guillemart Road and sing to the heart's content for at least 2 hours.

I was not really into the whole karaoke thingie. Afterall, I have a voice of a frog calling the rain. However, being the sport, I agreed.

First , we have to call the centre and ask if a room and available and find out the cost of the room. After several attempts, via operator and the internet, we found out the number and the group asked me to call. I call and when they lady pick up I asked

Hello, Grandlink

Yes what you want?

6 people How much?

complete silence

At this point, Aidil then helped asked the necessary questions. Until this very moment, I am still kinda stumped as to why the lady could not understand my simple question. Afterwards, we proceeded to the centre via Mr Slick's van.

We reached the centre and then after processing, we started to karaoke. It was my karaoke session. I was not confident neither do I have the looks. I could not show them my jazz hands since the room was small so I do not have a smoke screen for my lack of talent. The microphone was passed to me, the song Isabella. Yours truly belt out his best.

I assumed today, all those present just learn that high pitch screams plus some unexplained dance movements is a deadly combination. However the entire session was memorable as it was my first and given the chance, I would go again.

I do not have the photos to display and a more serious observation was made but that will be on the spotlights the moment the motley bunch uploads the photos. For now I leave you people with this saying, if you are indeed the rose among the thorns then you sure as hell pick the wrong place to grow. Spotlights for the moment.

Spotlighting on.... Normal

2009-11-20T03:01:00.000-08:00

Normal, we all know what it means. Ordinary, mundane, not spectacular.

What I really like to know is, just who the heck defines what is normal. I mean, if I were to tap dance in the middle of the road with nothing but Bermudas and sing the Batman theme song, I would be arrested and label insane. However, if everyone suddenly do the tap dance with the Batman theme song, then I would be ordinary as everyone is doing it. Better yet, I be ABNORMAL if I were to stand still, not joining the mass tap dancers. Insane? I am practising the Batman theme song, just in case.

Here is another example, Thierry Henry is accused of cheat, using his hand to guide the goal that then propels them now to the World Cup. He uses his hand, then everyone scream foul. That is normal. However, Diego Maradona was voted the best footballer by Netizens and he uses his hands for that infamous Hand of God Goal. So is it not a fair guess if I were to say in a few years time, Henry would be revered by the same batch criticising him this very moment.How about this, if he were to single handedly win the World Cup. HE would then be hailed for his brilliant skills and the cheating issue takes a back seat, all by the same batch that is crusifyiing him now! Well, isnt that normal? He would be hailed as one of the best footballers of this Generation and that would be ordinary. Personally, I think this is normal. The referee did not call it a foul. So why should we? Afterall, are we not the spectators. It would be abnormal to call it a foul if the referee did not call it a foul.

That now brings upon a very important question, who defines normal? Society, hmm if that is the case then society is insane! Crazy in the sense that it sets the benchmark on what is acceptable in speech and clothing for all and even in the crazier sense that the people in society conforms to this standards. Take this for example, the current trend is the technological superiority. It would seemed inadequate for those in the current times not to be in touch via the web or mobile. So everyone races and information now is broadcast ed at amazing speed.

However, the world is facing global warming and the declining supply of natural resources. So another world trend, save the earth. Implement the planting of trees, whatever that works. So we got two conflicting trends, it would seem normal to appear online and waste electricity, however it would also seem normal to forgo the technology and live nature friendly. Afterall, if we are killing the planet with technology, is it not the ordinary solution to stop damaging the planet altogether and forgo technology?This is probably what is powering your electric stuff. Perceive it as either pollution.......the advancement of technology.....a superb picture........or an evil omen since the smoke look like a face. So would this picture be normal?

We all work for money. Money comes from paper. Paper is made from trees. Are we then not working for trees? Simply put, do not take yourself too seriously and follow the norm, as ordinary is extraordinary and yet nothing spectacular.

The spotlights ends with this saying, Humanity is insane in trying to define a sane humanity.

Spotlighting on...Wednesdays

2009-11-18T02:36:00.000-08:00

I simply hate Wednesdays. Yes, I hate Mondays, but I absolutely truly hate Wednesdays.

It is the middle of the week where it is like so much after Monday blues but so far away from beloved Fridays and the weekends. It is even more so when you are waiting for a date where you get to finally work. The week seems like an eternity, dragging its feet, the hours just slowly dragged its sorry feet till finally it is Thursday.

On top of that, there is not a great TV show I can think of on Wednesday. It is the main reason why I watch Singapore Idol, because there is not a better show around and believe me, Singapore Idol is horrifyingly lacking star talent.

Play games? Sure but at some point when your eyes hurt and your hands start to continuously tremble, I think it is best to stop a while. Go out with your friends? It is Wednesday, people! Work work work. Those like me, waiting for a go date to get off that butt and start their jobs, staying in is the practical choice since it saves money. Yeah, no hot dates but what the heck, I do not believe in true love anymore.

It has come to the point where I can not be inspired to write an award winning post! Yeah, Wednesdays are the hindrance to my Pulitzer. While all may chastise on that maybe I lack talent, I rather blame it on something else.WHY CANT AN ANGEL LIKE THIS ENTERS MY LIFE, ESPECIALLY TODAY WHEN I NEEDED THE MOST?

I just do not know what to do. If AJ http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/ or Rio http://riohaikaludin-4thblog.blogspot.com/ is here at the moment, I could show them my tap dancing skills. If Andhika is here I could show him some shoes. Sigh, please please just let this day be over and just reach that start date so I can work. Oh wait! Then I would really hate Wednesdays a lot more.

The spotlights today end with this irony, Mar Suzaku was born on June 6 1984, Wednesday 7Pm

Spotlighting on... Passion on hobbies

2009-11-15T08:50:00.000-08:00

Today, AJ creepy eyes,yeah my best friend bought himself a Sony A230L SLR camera at IMM.

THE SONY A230L +

AJ CREEPY EYES http://www.aj-junior.blogspot.com/

[GET THE IDEA, HIM AND A GOOD CAMERA,HAVE FEAR LADIES]

On a serious note, AJ has a good eye for pictures.... though he looks either cheesy or creepy at photos! He is one of a kind, a raw talent that will blossom in photography. The pictures taken gives testament to my bold statements. The one thing that stood out for me however is his passion. The passion for photos. He loves taking photos of whatever that catches his eyes. Walks all around town without a care, just to snap that perfect shot.

AJ is the kind of guy you would like NOT to take shopping. He MICROANALYSES things and second guesses himself before buying something. He had go all around Singapore and delays until he get a steal. Some call it smart shopping, I call it fussy. However today, he bought this SLR camera which by no means is cheap because he finds photography his calling.

That sets me thinking. How many people that we actually know, not the ones we read on the papers, or even ourselves ever recognize and pursue our passion? Dreams and goals yes but passion? Hobbies?

Why do people do it? Spend time, money and even sacrifice for doing something they are in passion? Why go to such lengths to do things that not necesarily be essential in their lives? Why throw away the energy, time for something they like doing?

I ask AJ and he said photography makes him happy. I do not know but I think that may be the case. Happiness. People would do anything to find that little activity just to feel that little bit of happiness. Looking back, I am no different. Writing makes me happy so I blog it out. For all I know, people in the world do not care if this blog spot exists, that I do not have the ability in writing great posts like Xiaxue..... ok I do not find her entertaining at all but I give credit when it is due. Yet here I am, no matter how irregular my posts are, I still someday somehow log on, write what I feel about whatever that crosses my brain and post. I would not die without blogging and yet I still have to blog at some point in life.

I maintain the fact that all humans are insane, it is just they do not know it. Passion for a hobby, be it gaming, photography,writing,soccer or whatever supports my claims. If you look at the passion from a different angle, spending all that resources on an activity that is not work or academic is crazy. It is a waste.You would not die living a life without a hobby.

However, if happiness is essential to a human to live a productive and meaningful life, then having a passion is necessary to survive. You would then die without a hobby. Thus here lies the argument, the emotion against the basic survival. Thus, we humans are in a way insane in that point.

The spotlights ends with Suzaku's viewpoint, if you have a passion, go for it. Sure, it may be insane or even never amount to anything but humans are all insane so might as well be a happy insane rather than a depressed crazy. Yep, I said it, AJ is certified insane just like me.

Spotlighting on...my disappearance of the virtual worfd

2009-11-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

I just am not in the mood these few days. I feel bitter and depressed. I still have not got over my unexpected break up and the truth is, I truly felt heartbroken.

I have been trying to keep myself busy, distracting myself via video games, reading and other stuff like hanging out with creepy eyes but still, at the end of the day, I feel that void in my life.

Recently,I just do not have the mindset these days to blog. Even with events like the potential war of Thailand and Cambodia, the actions of North Korea or the plain simple Ris Low does not inspire me to write.

It seems that going online makes me sadder. I am constantly reminded of her when I see happy couples and it hurts me to even look at the pictures of the happy past and now unhappy present.

I also have not been contacting a lot of friends, save a very elite few as I just do not have the strength anymore to put up a brave front. I just find it a lot easier these days to snap and I do not enjoy smiling like I used to. I avoided them to prevent them from being hurt by me and that I believe is the best decision in my opinion. How do people with marriages coped with divorces?
This icon is the summary of what happen!

What is happening to me? I used to not have a care in the world, the man without fear, the icon of carefree. Now, Im reduced to this state. Somebody please please tell me the things I have to do to get back up and move on because I hate standing still. Maybe, time is the only thing that can heal my utterly devastated heart.

As much as the master of the spotlights hate to admit, my heart is not as cold as I want it to be. This is the hardest lesson I ever learn and I guess I do not want to ever fall in love again. With that, end of today's spotlight.

Spotlighting on.....the sabbatical

2009-11-07T23:48:00.000-08:00

I took a few days off blogging to recharge my batteries. I guess all that penned up frustration and rage took its toil on me and I thought a few days offline, retreat into a quiet corner where no body would be able to find me would do me good.

It did help cheer me up a little. For the first time in a long while I felt better. All that anger seems to fade a little.

Also I went back online and search for more nice pictures to help me calm down. I came across these pictures.
It seems that cats helps me to calm down. I do not know why but it seems by looking at cats, real or in pictures, I feel relaxed.

Today's spotlight ends with this saying, for those who are always angry like me, take some time out and try to find the one thing that helps you relax, even a little.

Spotlighting on... my emotions these past few days

2009-11-02T09:32:00.000-08:00

These days, I just feel horrible. I truly felt alone and all the past hurt, the pain and the failures caught up to me. The overwhelming feelings of sadness is slowing gripping my heart and again this rage is building up in me.

I kept telling myself, you succeeded this time. You finally attained a diploma after so long and that this is the beginning of a new life, a new chapter towards that bright light. Compared to others, at least now you are handed a fresh start.

If so, then why do I feel so lousy? Why do I feel that I never will, for once find that peace of mind, that love for myself that I so ever crave? It seems easier to care and love for others, it seems easier to indulge in cyber fantasy because reality, I hate myself and I hate my past failures. I hate the fact that I have to disguise these emotions of anger and had to put up a front so as not to show people this scarred of a man I really am. The failed engagement, the past mistakes, the jeering, the unfulfilled potential and not meeting expectations are slowly tearing my mind apart. Bit by bit.

Somedays, I just want to scream my lungs out. All days, I wish I could just disappear where no one can find me.

What I really want is success and love. For me to forgive myself and finally become that man I want to be. Everyday, I find myself in conflict. That is why I want tomorrow. I will never give up on faith but I sure am losing this battle for my anger management. However, as long as I can, I will fight for tomorrow because despite slowly losing my rage control and possibly my sanity, I believe in hope. Suzaku spotlights ends here for now.

Spotlighting on...Nightmares

2009-10-31T22:28:00.000-07:00

The definition of a nightmare is that a nightmare is an unpleasant dream. Nightmares cause strong unpleasant emotional responses from the sleeper, typically fear or horror. The dream may contain situation(s) of danger, discomfort, psychological or physical distress. Such dreams can be related to physical causes such as a high fever; in an uncomfortable or awkward position; stress or post traumatic experiences. Sometimes there may not readily be an explanation. If a person has experienced a psychological trauma, the said experience may haunt them in their nightmares. Sleepers may be waken in a state of distress, and be unable to get back to sleep for some time.

Most call this picture nature, I called it a source of trouble.

I once read somewhere that nightmares may also be the body's way of sending that harsh lesson through to you. To ensure that you learn from whatever horrible experience you went through in the past. In that case, that may explain the nightmare I have been experiencing thoughout this week.

While this is not the actual nightmare I am going through right now, I wish the thing plaguing me is less creepy than this hot girl ghost thingie.

I really hate nightmares. I already have an insomnia problem and now nightmares. Just how bad could my luck get? So today's spotlight ends with a plea to readers, please post some ways for me to get sleeep or at least make what little sleep I get nightmare free. Thank you very much people.

Spotlighting on.....Children

2009-10-30T05:39:00.000-07:00

I heard a saying once, children are our future. That children carries the hopes and dreams of the parents and that they would be the ones who would inherit the planet. That it is our obligation as the old guard to guide and protect, love and teach these youngsters.

Thus it is so sad for me to read the news these days. Stories like

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20091029/tap-580-two-children-believed-missing-ca-231650b.html

http://www.asiaone.com/News/Latest+News/Asia/Story/A1Story20091030-176828.html

http://www.asiaone.com/News/Latest+News/Asia/Story/A1Story20091029-176597.html

http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,218852,00.html

really really depresses me. I love children. To hear their laughter brings a joy and smile to my heart no matter what mood Im in and it really bothers the hell out of me to read news of the young being wronged.

Look at these pics

Dont they at least invoke a smile on your faces.

Please, save the children. Dont abuse them, no matter what the excuse is. Salehan Allaudin, and other monsters who abuse the weak, do take note, you wont get away from retribution from the one above, no matter what your faith is. Please please, I beg people, spread the word of Suzaku, love the young, nurture them with love not hate. Also people, remember, that there are those who are a bit less fortunate than you and that do your part even if it is little to help these needy children

I shall end the spotlight with a saying of my own, the young shines the way we show them the light.

Spotlighting on....Books

2009-10-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

Technology sure has advanced these few years. Nowadays it is so easy to find the whereabouts of someone, information on almost anything to even swopping incredible tales, fact or fiction with anyone you desire.

It makes me think, with all the information at our fingertips, is the days of reading a book going extinct? Will it share the same fate as the dodo?

It seems with the advancement of technology, spotting someone reading a novel in the MRT or even at homes are getting rarer. The majority prefers to read from the internet, a portal for fact and fiction, from past to the present while listening to music or something else. Multi tasking they'd say.With so much information and media types at hand, why have a book to read in the train when they can serve the internet or check their mail via phone? Why read just one book when I can go to the internet and switch in a jiff if I find the article boring.

ONE OF THE FACES OF TECHNOLOGY
THE DUST SURE ARE GATHERING ON THE BOOKS

I belong to the dying breed of book lovers. Sure the internet is great but at the end of the day, I liked a book by a nice cup of coffee rather than a hot laptop on my lap. Sure there are desktop coolers but I still prefer reading Dexter in my hands rather than from a small 10 inch screen. It just feels more personal. It just feels that this article is meant for me to personally enjoy reading at my own pace, in my own corner, safe from the worries of the world around me. It just takes away my woes and pain better than the computer.

With technology rapidly advancing, books may soon be outdated. It is sad but this is just one of the many pitfalls of technology, it outdates your humanity. Sooner or later, robots may take over the workforce. The only plus side of that is a robot would sing much much better than the current Singapore Idol hopefuls. Ponder for a moment and with that Suzaku ends the spotlight.

Spotlighting on....Singapore Idol

2009-10-28T05:09:00.000-07:00

Singapore Idol hasnt been great this season. The talents are are not performing well and seems unmotivated. The judges it seems have been too nice and not conveyed the message properly to the hopefuls that they are not performing as to what we consumers expect and that the contestants really need to buck up.

What happened? What went wrong to the novel idea? I am no professor but I do have ample time to spare to conjure several theories as to why the show has so far, in my opinion flopped.

Reason number1: The concept itself

There is no originality in the show's concept. I do agree that the heart is there. The drive into searching and then developing raw talents in Singapore is ever present but still, lack orginality. That is why the show will probably not be a success in the long run. Its like a copy, similar but not as good as the predessor. This also hightlights one of Singaporeans troubling nature, the natural ability to mimic and/or outdo the original design but face difficulties in coming up with a new concept.

Reason number2: The judges

From my view as a viewer at home, it seems that the judges do not interact with each other naturally. Kinda like watching a bad stand up comic. Also, some of the comments were in my opinion, sugarcoated. I sincerely believe that while there is never a need to go overboard with mean statements, to tell the contestant they performed competently is just too nice. How will the hopefuls know just what is lacking or wrong from their performances.

Reason number3: The Contestants

I know they can sing. What is really wrong with the hopefuls is that I do not feel connected when they sing. They have to get this straight, I am a consumer, a customer. If I dont like what I see or hear, I switch off or buy from another artiste like say Justin Timberlake or Rihanna. I just like to highlight to them, you guys neither singing with conviction nor with passion. It doesnt matter what your vocal strength is, it is the manner and emotion you potrayed when you are performing and the damning truth is none of the hopefuls displayed that passion. Where has the X Factor gone to?

To all those that thinks my comments are wrong, feel free to blast me online. I sincerely believe anyone has a right to his thoughts, to his each own or something like that. Idol, please prove that the show is not some failed mimic off the American version and that contestants, put your heart out. Sure, Singaporeans are generally conservative but you are in the entertainment business and it is about time each of you shed off your ego and showcase your potential. The entertainment business is very fickle and with that little advice I ends today's spotlight.

Spotlighting on.... Opportunities

2009-10-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

Today, I went for my job interview to negotiate my terms and application of the job Im applying for. While I am remaining confidential on the company and the position Im applying for, I just would like to reveal that the negotiations had ended and that in the end I got a pretty good bargain. The company took a chance on me and gave me the opportunity to prove my worth and that is all I really wanted. I want to take this time to thank all my friends at TMIS like Nora and that Eva as well as Jason of TMIS a big thank you in helping me all the time in chasing my dream.

Going back home, I realised that despite all the failures I faced in the past, I had to admit that life had not been that unkind to me. Sure, I did fail and made bad decisions most of the time but if I were to look at it in a different viewpoint, I was given an opportunity to make that decision instead of being forced into making a choice.

I had always said in person that life is metal. Indeed it is. Life can be as cold and inflexible but only if you do not make the effort. It is up to you to heat the metal and bend it the way you think you want it to be. Sure, you may make mistakes but I sincerely believe that as long as you still breathe, you always have a fighting chance. As long as the sun still shines, you always have a chance.

I know that while I am always angry and ranting and in emotional pain, I always think that things happene for a reason. I see it that everyday is an opportunity and that if I could just put aside the trauma and hurt aside and not let it control me, I think that success and happiness will eventually filled my heart. Maybe, I will still be thrown with more disappointments and failures but yet I still yearned for tomorrow and hope for the very best.

So people, today's preaching is that I do hope that the people in pain, victims of all kind and even those who thinks they are ok, do a self reflection on all the opportunities given to you. Also, I stressed that while today may suck for you, there will always be a tomorrow. Afterall, Life is metal. Thank you for taking time on reading this spotlight.

Spotlighting on.... Hope

2009-10-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

Life.

What is the true definition of life? Why are we here? Why was I born and for what reason has I come unto this world? I do not think anyone has the absolute right answers to these most asked questions.

Today, after I get back home from making my new passport, I spent some time reflecting on my life. It has not been proceeding well as I had planned nor has it gone the way I wanted it to. Some may be due to some extreme bad luck while others are just due to my uncanny ability of making wrong decisions most of the time. I reflected upon the number of times I had been and had disappointed people as well as the number of times I failed as well as I succeeded.

It was not a good ratio people! The number of failures is far far more than the number of success. That got me depressed for a moment. Then I started to think, what if I just forget about yesterday and hope for tomorrow. Sure, my past hasnt been a blast but tomorrow is a brand new day.

I think in my hotblooded nature, bad decisions, broken relations, tomorrow is my best plan. That is because I can never go back to the past and stop myself but I can plan and hope tomorrow would be better. The emotions of the past still pained me up to this very second but still I yearned for tomorrow. The best weapon this world have at the moment is not some stupid nuclear warhead but hope.

Everyday around the world, people are either subjected to violence, rape, tragedies or other atrocities. World peace is a dream that has yet to be achieved and while many are working towards this dream, there are others hell bent to stop this dream turning into reality. Take what happened recently. The twin suicide car bombings that killed many in Iraq.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20091026/tts-iraq-unrest-a9aa023.html

The Horror

I can never imagine the pain or the emotions the victims of these incident and I think it far outweigh the pain in my heart and soul. The many questions of why, who and for what purpose of the bombings is questioned but the horrifying truth is that the incident had happened and that it can never be taken back. The dead can not possibly be resurrected.

I would like this moment to tell readers to please spare a minute of silence for all that had been wronged, not only the victims of the unwarranted and cruel incident in Iraq but also a minute for all the people in the world who had some manner of injustice done to them. I also would encourage the people today to spare a prayer for them.

I offer people with this simple advice. Do whatever you think is right but always filled it with hope. Maybe you had undergone some terrible incident, or maybe just a bad day. No matter what, who or however you are, never lose hope. Hope is the thing we have and I sincerely would like to remind anyone reading to never forget that. People, please spread the word around.

I also would like to tell people my simple hope and wish. I hope despite my flaws and temper, I can someday be a cool cat, one with the wind and that despite the failures, I hope tomorrow is a succcess and my wish is that someday the entire world would just get along and play nice. With that, I end this session of Suzaku's spotlight.

Spotlighting on....My hot blooded nature

2009-10-25T04:28:00.000-07:00

I think the ones staying with me as well as my closest friends know of my true hot blooded nature. Oh yeah, its true. I have one hell of a temper. It just irks me when things do not seem to go as planned, or if someone just plain spoils my day. It pisses the living hell if I fail do something no matter what.

The reason why this is the topic being highlighted is the fact that lately it seems to be getting worse. I just find it hard to not blow my top these days and I just hate the fact that maybe I may be getting out of hand. It seems I am doing and turning into a monster that I fear.

It started when I was young, I was being nagged about my underacheivements and mistakes when I suddenly snapped. I screamed at the top of lungs and it felt right. Later on, even though I felt I was in the wrong, I did not bother to apologize till much much later. I guess with time, my temper keeps growing and growing. I started to get mad at the minimal of matters and just let anger devour my soul.

I think Im just afraid that maybe I might metamorphize into an even worse monster. I dont use violence, yet. Yet, despite this realisation I still find it hard to tame this beast within. I hate this monster inside me, feeding on my insecurities and yet felt weak in being unable to tame it.

Fortunately at the moment, I have facebook to thank for slightly keeping my anger in check. Whenever I felt super angry, I logged on and there will always be people who cheer me up. Be it my fair princess, my classmates, my friends or just someone new, it just really made my day and takes my mind of my troubles. Thus I felt something I havent felt in quite a while,hope.

My fair princess and I

Also, another thing I would like to thank is Ayumi Hamsaki. She also is the other thing that never fails to cheer me up whenever Im depressed or angry. I just have to look in her eyes or listen to her melodious voice and I be euphoric.

My one and only Ayumi Hamasaki

Thus today I end this spotlight with this, for those who have anger issues, I feel you and lets not give up but battle this condition no matter even if we are indeed fighting a losing battle. The important thing is hope.

Spotlighting on.... this blogspot

2009-10-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

AJ Prince Evans of http://aj-junior.blogspot.com/ persuades me to have a blogspot. He says its hip and that is a better way of voicing my opinions than just yelling at the void deck. I wasnt convinced by his sales pitch at first but after much thought I decided to get my sorry ass of my couch and set up this blog. I wasnt really sure of the power of the blogspot but I think it is a hell lot easier and more powerful than going down to Hong Lim park and making speeches.

Now, since this is very first post, I would like to introduce myself. Im not sure why but I think my readers, if any would like at least a glimpse at my psyche. Im a Singaporean, yes you guessed it (DUH), male age 25 and just recently completed my Diploma in Tourism programme. Yep, jobless for the moment! Lovewise, it really sucks for me. My fiance left due to my choice in trying to attain a diploma over just slaving over a stupid blue collar job for the rest of my life and support her. Complete lack of responsibility and financially useless Im labelled. Yeah, for those who had gone through worse, buy me a drink and we will swop sob stories and cake recipes.

The only thing that I can proudly say is that I have one hell of a luck when it comes to friends. Yeah, Aj, Nora and Nas they had been swell to me. Yep and Eva too, no I didnt forget ya.

My Classmates

My Best Friends

AJ is the one on the left, yep the creepy eyes as what I like to label him. Swell guy, though creepy in more ways than one. Nas, just plain horny and Andy, the so called normal guy with a corny sense of humour. Yeah I love you guys too.

Thus today 24 October, the birth of this blogspot and my new life and with that I end today's spotlight